follow up...

He did call, 11.28... jookes. 

But we sorted things out and the lunch was rather... interesting.
Kangaroo, crocodile, pork belly and alpacka. 

Today it's raining quite a lot... nothing more to say about that really, other than I'd like to just lie down in bed and watch a movie. But I'm going to be a social person and go meet Nancy at Brick Lane. 

Some passive agressive shit

So today my and my boyfriend celebrate 16 months together. I know it's an odd number, but we try to make the effort once a month, so why not on the day that we started our relationship? 

Today I was planning on taking him to this restaurant with some really cool food. Nothing I would really go to for myself, but I thought he would really like it. But after having a small fight since last night, progressing onto today and he still hasn't called me (and it has been 2 hours or more since we left eachother) I think our date won't happen. I have given a deadline in my head when I will resort to taking my dearest friend Nancy with me instead, as it's already paid and it would just ba a waste.

Isn't relationships kind of funny? 
They make you feel all this things, happiness, gratitude, love... 

But they also make you feel shit.
As a quite strong, independant woman, I now feel weak and all I want to do is call my boyfriend and continue to be angry, with added on top because he clearly doesn't bother too much about our date today. But I will think like if I would be single today. If a date pulls out, you make new plans and don't feel bad about it. Instead of spending all angry energy trying to print into my boyfriends head why I am dissappointed. 

His deadline is 11.30am London time, so 14 min to go.
To be continued....

but why?

I just watched the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy and I am still crying my balls out. 

SPOILER ALERT, but I cannot believe Derek just died and how he had to die. I don't really know what else to say... I'm so sad it's ridiculous.

just relaaaax

It feels so good when you can spend a whole afternoon/evening doing absolutely nothing.
I listened to SERIAL, fell asleep, cooked some food and then just catching up on series I've missed for the past 3 weeks. No bad feelings at all. Just relaxing. I deserve it. Tomorrow is yet another Monday and my schedule is pretty full.

Sunday Funday

So since last post things has happened.

I'm 26 (!?!!) years old. Damn. Feels good though and this year is ging to be great I think. 
My boyfriend took me to the aquarium and then my flatmates took me out for dinner along with my bf and Raae's bf. Vietnamese food and "bring your own bottle". Such a nice night and I got considerably drunk on the way back home. But the time we got back I was super drunk haha. 

Today Kaeten called me and told me we are signed up for Touch Mudder, which is gonna be great... but it's in less than 2 weeks.. I'm gonna be full on training until then. Slightly nervous to be honest. But it's gonna be a good time, just hope the weather will be good!

Last night I went over to my friend Monica for dinner and girl talk catch up. Such a lovely night. She used to be my client about a year ago, and for some reason we became friends... anyways... she got me hooked on the podcast called SERIAL. Honestly, listen to it, it's great! 

So it's 5pm, I'm gonna put on a wash machine and then continue listen to the podcast for the rest of the day. Monica also lend me Norwegian Wood from Haruki Murakami, so I might be doing some reading too! 

Easter

I'm lying here in the middle of the night finding it hard to sleep. 
I'm still probably recovering after getting really super drunk with my stepmom in a 100 degree celcius sauna session. (Thought I would die and only managed 17 minutes). 

But I'm also lying here thinking about life and what to do with it.
Maybe I care too much of what I will bring to it, or maybe I don't... I don't know which on it is to be honest. But I know I'm really ready to move away from London, as much as I LOVE what my life has given me whilst spening almost my entire grown up life there. 

I don't really know what it is drawing me back to Sweden, but maybe I'm just fed up with the hectic, no-privacy lifestyle you get in London. I want MY OWN home, my own fridge and freezer, my own dinner parties and some own time whenever I want it. I really do love London but I am ready to grow and I feel like it's holding me back. 

I think I'm still tipsy and need to sleep but yeah.. 

OH, btw.... I got upgraded to a Silver EuroBonus member... meaning I will be traching the airport lounges from now on... come tomorrow! Come London! :) 

Good night!

Easter Break

Hey guys. 

I'm back in Sweden for the week. So very nice, and as always, so very hectic!

Today I woke up late at my dad's, had breakfast, took the dogs for a long walk, got a ride into Stockholm, walked around on my own for one hour, trained with Fabian, donated some blood, dinner at my mum's and relaxed at Emilie's. Now I have gone through 25 emails that was sent to me between yesterday and today and I am ready for bed. 

Tomorrow I'm gonna wake up, maybe walk over to my brother's to chill, then go train with Fabian again and try catch up with Malva for a tea or so, maybe see my client who is coming to Stockholm with her bf, then hang out with my mum somewhere and finally maybe have a games night. 

Saturday the whole family is gathering at my dad's for Easter Lunch and then I'm definitely doing a sauna session before bed! Then cuddles with the dogs, wake up on Sunday and relax and take a long walk before heading back to the airport and back to London.

work hard, recieve

It was very painful to try to wake up again this morning. I think it took me a good 40 min to get out of bed again, haha. 

Had classes at Southwark at lunch time... they were great today, loads of energy and people are daring to try to go heavier in the circuit class. Amazing. Did a great back session myself afterwards as well, feeling slight drained now!

Just did my weekly study call from my nutrition course. This time they talked about fibre and it's important role in our health. Very interesting. Make sure to eat enough fiber folks! 

As for now I need to lay down until Kaeten get here. Knackered!

GOOD morning

Woke up 5.30am, crawling out of bed. Made myself ready for work, just had eggs for breakfast and was about to leave the house. Thought I'd better read my email before leaving and BOOM, client cancelled. Off to bed again, happy.

big stuff

Again... very long since my last blog post and again, a lot has happened since then. 

I feel way more relaxed about life in general and my stress levels are pretty good. I'm happy with my job and I can feel myself growing as a trainer more and more. There will always come times with doubt, but I feel stronger and more focused on things. 

I went back to Sweden for my great uncles funeral last week. It was beautiful and so much love in the room. My cousin and I sang "Your Long Journey" by Robert Plant and Alisson Krauss and it felt really good to be singing in front of people again. 

Otherwise music-wise.. it's a slow process. I don't have my head clear enough to switch of work at the moment, which is hindering me to sit down and put my ideas to paper. I do have ideas, but right now that's all there is. 

BUT. 

I have decided to move back to Sweden (or possibly somewhere else in the world, but probably Sweden). It has been in my head for a while but after going back this time I couldn't reject the thought. And I am excited. I know what I want. I have plans. I have a drive within me. And it feel really good. Luckily I have convinces Kaeten to come with me, at least to try it out for a year. Who knows... I might regret Sweden sometime along the line.. but right now it feels good. BUT! I want to stay in London another year to save money, do some courses and enjoy it just a little bit longer! 

Anyways... todays study call is about fibre.. so I better get going! 

Lots of love