The best kind of love

Just got home from my PT session with Fabian. He compleately killed me, and I was still dead from three days ago. I don't think I have ever sweat as much as I did today. I could litterally squeez out the sweat from my top. And when I was on my knees on the floor, I could glide here and there. I hated it and I loved it, the best kind of love.

Time to get ready for a Gaga night out!

today for you, tomorrow for me

Today was like most days. Work and training. Well I did some cardio for 45 min, since this was my rest day. Tomorrow is a great fun day.

My PT friend Fabian is training me at 1 pm, then at 5 pm I'm having dinner before going to see Lady Gaga along with some fun family members and some less fun family members. I think it will be awesome anyway.

So long, good night.

You can call me Al

Today I got an email from the gym my PT friend is working at. I'm going there for free on Friday and the guy (not my friend) thinks he can sell me a membership. He's clueless. Anyways, in my email I got it started off with; "Dear Robin"

Eh?

sleeping dead

I slept like something dead. So nice. Waking up I realized how effective the crossfit session was yesterday. My body, shiet!

the working bee theory

It's just over 9 pm and I'm gonna take a shower and then go to bed for some good old reading. Sixteen hours of work awaits me tomorrow, so a little bit of an early night wouldn't do me any harm. 

I'd rather not work at all, I'm over this job (for this summer at least), but what to do when you need the money? No that's right, nothing... just keep working. But work is easy and there's not a lot to do, so it's actually not that bad, just when you think about it as work. Otherwise I'd probably just wake up, feel that I should practice or do something else productive (which I still should), then feel bad if I didn't get as much as I wanted out of the day. 

Well, that's that. I'm better off working.

save the day

I had such a good workout today. I did a crossfit workout for 30 min and then my body was dead. And then I went back and did 20 min cardio. Plus a lot of walking today.

Now I've had a bug bugging me (ha!). Seriously, not wanting to leave my body, like a parasite. And when I think it's gone I find it in my hair, or on my foot. Now my body is iching and I think it's a killer bug. Wait, I see it on the floor. Time for killing it.


Haaa, dead!

Fools

It's definately not summer any more, still the sun is shining. But I'm not gonna be a fool and put on too little clothes, not this time!

Oh, watched the season finale on True Blood. I don't know what to think, but roll on next season.

monday evening

I had a nice workout today. Tomorrow I'm gonna try some Crossfit I think.. Need to get going on my chin-ups...

Then I went over to my dear friend Emilie where we started pouring ourselves drinks. Veeery nice. Went home a bit more relaxed and with a lot of mushrooms, for a tasty dinner with my mum. 

Eh, watched TV, and now I'm gonna finish the True Bloos season before sleeping!

monday morning

I woke up a few times last night, and I finally woke up at 5.30 just to not go back to sleep. But that's how it goes when you're in bed all day. I feel very rested though, and my neck pain is almost gone. So time to return to work. Just about two more weeks, then I think I'm done working for this summer...

JOKES!

I've spent almost all day in bed on-off sleeping. I haven't felt this wrecked in a long time. And all I've eaten is sandwiches and shit loads of blueberry pie my mum baked this morning. I'm terrible at using my days of, so therefore I'm gonna go to work tomorrow and ask for as many shifts I can get.

 

So other than feeling a bit like a pig I just have to say; You have got to love the story telling voice of Morgan Freeman. I can also revieal that I think I slit my toe while dancing yesterday. It used to happen sometimes when I was dancing without shoes, but I forgot how unpleasant the feeling were. 

Oh, maybe I should take a bath or something. Give me a reason to leave bed one last time before I'm hitting the can, again. 

meet my old friends

True friends won't grow apart 

even though they don't talk every day.

magical night

So the wedding yesterday... it was a different one from the ones I've been to earlier, but I'm glad I got to see how a catholic wedding is runned, yet I'm glad I don't have too many religious friends. It's a long process with a lot of standing, sitting down, standing again and kneeling on the floor. And a lot of talk. But it was so beautiful!! My friend looked like a dream and the couple looked so happy together.

Then we went to a place we're the dinner was held. We had to wait a very long time for the food, but once we got to eat, it was very nice. Even though I couldn't eat much since I was gonna dance.

Dance went fine and people loved it but I, of course, was a bit hard on myself. It went well but I'm nowhere near my former dancer. Oh well, I had fun and the neck-pain today is a reslut of me giving it my all!

Came home late and went to bed at 4 am. That's about that.

prince and princess

Just got home from my friends wedding. I will tell you about it tomorrow. Now I'm gonna have a second bowl of pasta and then fall into a deep nice comfy sleep. Please people at home... don't wake me up tomorrow!

change of plan

Woke up at 8 am to cut my brothers hair, since he as well is going to a wedding today. Another wedding. Was thinking about going to the gym to loosen up my muscles a bit, but now I think I change that idea to going back to bed for like 1,5 hours. Yes, that is the new plan.

good times, good friends

I spent last night at my old friends flat, drinking wine. I thought I'd drink one or two glasses, but we had about six glasses each. It was such a long time I had a girls night with her. Back in the days it used to be every day, but as life gets in the way, occations like this gets more rare.

Picture from last summer

realizations

It's sad when you realize that your relationship with you mum isn't what it should be. How do you work on something that clearly is broken? In other cases you might just move on, thinking it's not worth your while. But in this case? I have no idea where to begin...

best friends

up to no good

I've been litterelly sitting on my ass for three hours now... Time to do something. Like the gym, or something else. Just something. This is horrible.

back back

After going to bed fairly early all week I didn't go to sleep until 2 am last night, for no reason. Today I still need to figure out what to wear to the wedding tomorrow, get some training and more importantly, stretching done. Oh and maybe go through the dance a few more times.

And I promised to cut my brothers hair.
Well, looks like a busy day.

Save tonight

I've been meaning to some yoga, but I just can't do anything right now. It's like I just wanna soak in every little detail of this place.

I had a wonderful day yesterday. Well, the first part included moving most of Steve's things to his soon to be new home. Then we had to stay at home to let people look at the house. So we did some more packing and some more sorting shit out.

Then a quick pad-session in the park, oh that lovely park we neglected for so long. One of those stupid things you do in life.

We had dinner at a local pub, and after two beers I was slightly tipsy. We cuddled up on my blow up matress and started to watch Bedtime Stories. Non of us came very far.

While enjoying our burgers at the pub Eagle Eye Cherry's Save Tonight was playing. How cliché to be honest. Just like a movie.

Go on and close the curtains
Cause all we need is candle light
You and me and a bottle of wine
Going to hold you tonight
Well we know I'm going away
And how I wish, I wish it weren't so
So take this wine and drink with me
Let's delay our misery

There's a log on the fire
And it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire
To take me away, it's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye
Darling please don't start to cry
Cause girl you know I've got to go, oh
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I, that I could stay
Girl you know I've got to go, oh
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone

sad day

good productive day

Spent the day house hunting and walking a lot. I can't believe I missed walking through the cemetary so close to where I live. It was so peaceful and beautiful in a messy way.

I had pizza for dinner and a break from the gym. I hope Steve will train me tomorrow morning, and maybe tomorrow night as well..

I've been Skyping a bit with my dad and my second mum and now I just had such a strong impulse to watch Dirty Dancing. Then I'm so gonna sort out everything that is left to sort out!

Have a good evening :)

feet are off the ground

So things are finally looking a bit more organized for the move. On Sunday I had a little breakdown and to be honest. I really don't wanna move, not away from here but mostly not away from Steve. But it is what has to happen. And if we are gonna live together it will happen again eventually.

I know I need this year alone, to focus on me and what I wanna do. Everything is so easy and comforting with Steve, and I will miss that so much, and I don't even think I realize how much until I live somewhere else. It's scary with changes.

I'm sure I will live in a nice house with nice people, it's not that. I just really truly love living like this. So there I said it. Now it's time to continue working against it.

ready or not, it's time

I spent the beginning of this day packing and sorting shit out that Steve brought down from the attic. There is a long long way to go before we can call us ready. Maybe we aren't ready, but we just have to be. 

Anyways, then Andres came over and we called around to a few agencies and arranged a few viewings for tomorrow. Then we listened to music. 

I hurried to the gym to get a taste of a new kind of workout called Poliquin or something. It was totaly awesome and just by doing three different excersices, three times around. And each exercise lasts for a surtain amount of time. Anyways, it was good. That's that. 

Dinner at 10 pm and now it's time to a shower and then hit the bed. I hope for a good night's sleep, no more weird dreams please.

Steve and Emily day

Yesterday was Steve day. And we started the day with some fighting, then that passed and we had a wonderful day together. 

He trained me in the park and of course I was moaning like hell, like I wound't do if anyone else trained me. He seriously killed me, so I'm looking forward to doing it again, with some less moaning.. 

Then we went and bought bags. Rented two films, watched one of them and then I decided that we should go out, since the weather was sick yesterday. It was so hot, so it wasn't until around 5 pm I said "let's go to the park". 

And I can't believe we didn't go to this park before, instead of the other one we always went to. This park was amazing! Well, hopefully we can go again soon!

Eh yes, then a nice healthy dinner, and Fight Club. Such a great film. But we both were kind of tired and went to bed before 10 pm. Crazy. 

I have had so many weird dreams these past days. Last night I was struggling for money (true) and decided to become a whore. But I wasn't a very good one and then I had a hard time getting out of the business.. 

I think it's the heat. But then when I woke up today it was rather chilly outside. 

Today I'm going to the hairdresser. I just tried to brush my hair out. What a mess.

we became like the others

The viewing didn't quite happen today. Went there but then the agent couldn't get us in the front door. So that was that really.

Then I walked with my friend to Angel to get a free burrito. We also met up with Texas on the way. The burrito was sooo big and we were just sitting in a park talking about films and stuff. Coudn't move for a while. Then it was time to roll home.

God it's so warm. I'm not gonna complain, but it's 9pm and I'm in my underwear sweating like a horse. And tomorrow is Steve day. So after being trained by him we're just gonna hang out in the park and then sort our shit our in the flat.

viewing day

I spent the morning cleaning this place. And it took 15 min for 3 people to come and see the flat. My friend that was gonna come this morning is so late, hes not even here, and now it's time to go to the agency one hour away to look at one flat, when we could have looked at maybe two or three.

Well, I'm out o here anyways. It's too nice of a day to be grumpy and stay inside for more than you have to!

August summer day

The flat I was gonna look at today was already gone by last night. But I'm going tomorrow to look at another one, and this time my friend is coming along.

So I today I went to the agency and then I decided to get a wax, it's been way to long since i treated myself with one. And then I ended up window shopping on Oxford street.

Home to meet Steve for a little while and then food shopping and now I'm gonna tidy up a bit for the house viewings tomorrow. This moving out is really happening. And I don't know what I feel about it, but it's knocking on the door.

It has been soooo damn hot today, so I died when I was walking around in black jeans earlier. Now I'm wearing a dress and I'm loving it, I wish it was summer every day. 

Well, tidy up and then I'm heading to the gym.

taking a break, going mad.

Two hours later and NOW I'm giving up the house hunting for a while. It's so frustrating when people can't make up their mind. I'm going to see this flat tomorrow, which I suspect is gonna be a quite nice one, and for a good price in a very good location. But people just can't make up their minds about what they want. And one guy I've been talking about moving in with for a while is unreachable. So right now I need two other people that wants to move in somewhere, and I don't want anyone saying maybe. 

Come one!

London

So I'm back i London. Slept about nine well needed hours.

I've started my house hunting. But since I don't know with what people I'm gonna live with it's hard to continue. So I think I'm gonna get ready and leave the house for a bit, and see if I've gotten any replies when I come back.

Yes, that's what I'm gonna do.

Now, maybe I'll pay a visit to my dear old gym. See what's new.

I've packed my bags, I'll be home tonight

It's time to get going. So the next time you hear from me I'm back home in London. Looking forward to it so much, but I already mentioned that a few times!

Batman

The new Batman movie was really good, but a bit too long I think. Nice line up of actors too, and even though Tom Hardy was playing the bad guy with most of his face covered... ah, what a man.

It was nice to do something with my brother, living apart and then coming home to work all the time, you kind of take it for granted. So yes, very nice.

Now I'm gonna check were my passport is and then go to bed. I'm so tired.

let's bring it back

Just checked in for tomorrow's flight to London. I'm excited to go back and a bit tired of working, so I'm nothing but happy.

Need to pack some, but now it's time for the decade's first kebab. Yummy!

cotton for the brain

I just finished watching American Pie - The Reunion. I actually really liked it. And that's all I have to say about it. It eased my mind a bit and now I'm going to bed. 

Going to London in two days already, and even though it's just for a week and I have a lot of things to get sorted out I can't wait!

heart ache and laughter

So today is the annaversery of the death of my grandad.

I went alone to the cemetary after work, just to spend some serious time with my memories. As a few tears rolled down my face I just had to laugh. He was such a wonderful man. So loving and caring, yet so proud and stubborn at the same time. How much I wish he could come back to us, if only for a while.

One year and it still hurts.
Love always.

minty

My job is like a box of chocolate...
You never know what you'll get.

I had to lovely ladies today. So sweet that makes this job worth while.
The third lady isn't all that bad, but she't she rotting one, so you just have to feel bad when you're there.

And then this old man. What an ass whole. Trying to touch me and then hit me in the face. The words that came out from my mouth after a few serious goings at him were nothing less than mean. But the old man deserved it. Did he stop? No way.

Olymipics

A few things to clear out.

The Olympic closing ceremony wasn't all that good in my opinion.

Jessie J singing "Price Tag" riding around in a Rolls Royce Phantom. Contradicting or what? It just looked so stupid to me.

It was so cool that they did with Freddy Mercery. What a legend!

And probably the worst of all. Spice Girls. OMG it was horrible, so please please never get together and kill my youth again. I want to keep the memory of them being good and cool. Not like they were last night.

film night

Just watched The Lucky One with Zac Efron. My oh my what a hottie he has become to be! I liked the film as well, a really nice love film on a Sunday night. 

Time to drive to the practice palace. Just for sleeping today though, and to have somewhere nice to park the car. Gotta go up 6 am, so it's good not to be distracted as well. 

good night.

weekend

Last night I went for a borthday dinner at my uncle's. His wife's birthday celebration with a part of the family. It was nice, or as nice it can be on any family get-together...

The I got to be the driver, which I really don't mind since I love driving and hard get to drive these days.

I spent some quality time talking to my dad while walking around in the dark with just one flash light from my key chain. Their house is gonna be super amazing once it's done. Probably gonna spend all my free time just relaxing over there. Hopefully next summer!!

We woke up and after breakfast everyone started to work on the house. Marina and her mum and her friend on some brick stairs, my dad moved big stones and I tidied up things that is good for burning. 

Then I was stuck in trafic on my way home. Nice one. 

Got a nice dinner from my mum and now some chilling before going the practice palace.

bastardo

I was so tired when I woke up this morning. At 7.30 I got an annoying phone call and had a hard time falling back into sleep. I ususally put my phone on silence, but it course the night I forget the phone will be ringing. Eventually I did fall asleep though, but I felt like I had to wake up when the time was 9.30. So now I'm heading to the practice palace before going to work. Basta!

good night

Lucky me my mum picked me up after work. I'm so tired right now, I'm falling asleep on the kitchen table any second now. Time to get ready for bed, I'm in need of some serious and un-disturbed time in bed. Good night!

ordinary, but not dull

I got to meet my dad and his friends last night. It was, as always, very nice to do so. I'm looking forward to go out in the woods to see him and my second mum on Saturday night. 

As for now, I've been watching "So you think you can dance" and I'm just longing to take dance classes again. I'm gonna try to go regularly as soon as I get back to London and get sorted out. 

And now I'm packing my bags, and yes, heading to the practice palace before going to the gym, before going to work. Simple as that.

back to practice

I spent last night singing, practicing piano and dancing. I enjoyed every single second of it all. And the dancing is still there, thank God for that. the wedding is fast approaching. I used to be a bit nervous about the whole dancing thing, but after last night's practicing I'm actually looking forward to it!

So today I woke up and practiced the Sonata on the piano. That piece is so hard, I think. And then some good old vocal programs for about one hour. And of course the gym. Now I'm just chilling before going to work.

off day

I had a nice day out in the park with a friend today. And before that I went to the practice palace for a bit. Then I also went shopping on sale. I shouldn't do that, but I felt the urge to do it anyways. 

Now I'm heading back to the palace to practice more and practice some dance. And a nice bath will do me just fine. And best of all, no fucking cats wandering around being annoying and disturbing my peace.

So, laters.

more sleeping

I was dreaming that I was told that I needed more sleep. So I had to snooze for 40 min. It's time to pack a bag and head to the practice palace.

THUG

This is how we looked when we kidnapped our friend for her own hen-party. I hope she had a good day and night, as it was filled with events and people that loves her. I can't wait to see her in her wedding dress on the 25th this month.

kill it

I killed my legs at the gym today. It took all of my energy and you know how funny it is when people are dozing off on the tube and the head falls down, and they briefly wakes up and pretend like nothing, just to doze off again... Well that was me. This means I did a good job today. 

I came home and cooked a nice healthy dinner for my mum. Roasted veggies with salmon and goat cheese. Well it wasn't bad, but I wasn't very impressed eighter. I don't know about my mum, but I think she just didn't wanna offend me, which would lead to me not cooking in a long time...

what we do

I'm not sensitve to a lot of things... well in this case smells. But to start the work day at 8 am and take care of a lady that is litterally rotting gave me some serious eructations. I actually had to leave the room for a breif moment. Then I wanted to cry in empathy for the lady that was in a huge pain as well. So that was one of those moments that probably not everyone could endure.

sleepless

I had a troubled sleep last night. I woke up around 4.30 am because it was too hot, so I had to open my window and take off the little I still had left on my body.

Then the house mate's fucking cats went mental and wouldn't shut up for two seconds. So I was laying awake thinking about ways to put them down. I'm serious. And now when she left thay are running around in the flat like they have rabies or something. Something has to happen. But first thing I'm gonna do now is to close the doors so that they can't run around...

my sunday date

After a whole day worth of chilling it time fo go to sleep. Tonight I'm sleeping with my friend "Simon the Sea Horse". Yes, he's a real sea horse, with a bit of a dry sense of humor. Dry. Haha. Just like me.

HEN-PARTAY!

I just got home from todays adventure. Now I can tell you that I went to a hen-party for my friend thatäs getting married in three weeks. It was a lot of fun, but I think the mixture of liquids has gotten to my head. It's like I'm hungover. But I guess after being on the go for about 12 hours you can't really expect anything else.

Anyways, we kidnaped her and played games. She had to do some tasks on the way to everything. We went for poledancing and I'm gonna start taking classes. I was pretty good for a nooobie too, so hellz yes I'm going again, my body was sooo soar after that.

Then we took her to a restaurant, but hardly nobody could finish any of the 3 dished we had pre-ordered.

And a lot of dancing of course.

And a loooong was home. Had to wait for 15 min on one train, and 30 min for another. Sucked big time. But at least I listened to the song I'm gonna dance to on the wedding day. It's time to start practicing for real now. But maybe not tomorrow...

hard knock life

Sixteen (16) hours of work. Boom! Done. I'm a wreck, still I'm not in bed yet. But here I go. I need to have some serious sleep because tomorrow something is up, which I hope will be fun! Tell you tomorrow.

Moody Monkey Man

the event of the day

Hilarous to sit in the kitchen while my brother is going mad on a computer game in the other room while skyping to someone.

HELLO RUSSIA

This week's reader mainly comes from Russia, so Hello an thank you for reading!

fyi

Today was the forst day in probably a whole month when I didn't eat any sweets. Thinking about the amount that has to enter and gone through my body system... no, not nice. So yeah, kudos to me, right?

second choice

After a nice shower it's nice and cozy in my new man hoodie. A little bit too hot to be honest, but my robe was occupied by a Daddy Long Leg. Not nice, just sitting there all content and shit.

no cat lady here

Fucking cat waking me up at 5 am. He just won't shut up that one. Only when the owner sleeps at home, but that hardly happens anymore... Poor cats, but I couldn't care less if they (yes, they are two) starved right now. I wrote her a note a two days ago, but obviously she can't read it until she gets home..

I feel better now.

brothers

My day ended up being really nice after all. I went shopping by myself and got myself a new nice pair of running shoes. They were sooo cheap too, so I was happy. I also got myself a man hoodie so that I can be all cozy and warm when needed. 

Then I went straight back home to my brother and his girlfriend, where my other brother already was. We had a nice dinner and watched some from the Olympics and something about Avicii. I just got back and I'm gonna keep this evening short I think, and hope. Maybe another hour and then straight to bed.

tired and restless.

I realized this morning that I was awake 22 hours yesterday. I came home from work and didn't go to bed until 4 am. Silly me. So much for resting on your day off when I woke up at 10 am and started to clean the house. 

Then Peppe came and picked me up ad we went over to my brother's. It was nice to see him and his girlfriend again. It has been a long time since. Therefore I'm heading over there for dinner later today. 

I think I'm heading to town for some training gear shopping, I'm feeling tired and I don't wanna sleep now...