productivity on top

I love those moments when you slip into a study mode when it wasn't your intentions from the start. So for the past two hours I've been working on my samba draft, done some Steely Dan research and started on that freaking Steely Dan draft too. And I still have two more hours before I have to go to work.

Oh, and I have also packed my bag for London. I know I still have another five days here in Sweden, and I intend to enjoy them as much as possible, but I do look forward to go back and get cracking. I have such a good feeling for next term.. but I might as well rest a little before that time is here. But what do you do when you're resting? It's not really in my vocabulary. I'll try reading a book.

3 years ago and today

I can't believe that three years ago on the day I went travelling for five months. It truly was something very special and amazing I got to experience on my own, and it really did change my point of view in life and my point of view of myself and others. 

I'm longing for the day I will pack up my backpack and head out for another adventure like that one. But in a way I'm on a greater adventure right now. And just like back then... it's hard and many times I just wanna go back home, but at the same time I love every single moment of it.

sleepyhead

The days I'm not working a morning shift I really make the most out of my bed. Well I could probably stay longer, but I think 10 am is enough. I usually wake up earlier, but it's just so dark outside. Especially days like this, gray and gloomy. 

Tonight after work I'm celebrating new years with two of my friends. Just some white wine and loads of talking. Can't wait!

2012 thoughts, 2013 goals

So the new year is coming up. 

I'm quite happy with the year that has passed by. I can't really recall everything that has happened, but I'm just happy. And I'm happy in London, at least for now. So for the first half of next year I'm gonna push on, as always, but a little harder. I'm gonna continue writing stuff with the man Perea. And when summer comes, and graduation has passed, I will be able to look back on these three years in London and think that I did great, and that hopefully I have something beautiful to hold on to and stay for a while. 

Just some midnight thinking. 

Btw, the full moon was soooo beautiful last night. 

Good night.

head ache and sweat

I woke up and I did some studies. Really proud of that. Then I got this super weird head ache that has been coming and going all day. Like a sting on the right side of the head. And I also have this really weird sound in my left ear that just won't stop. Oh well. 

I got trained by my friend Fabian. Maaaaan I was tired, but he was still a little impressed of my progress since the last time we trained. I wish I could have a PT session, or three, every week. I love it so much. Fortunately we are gonna squeeze another session in before I go home. Yippi!

Eh, went on a little shopping spree before going home. Training cloths, stockings and a mask for new years eve.

Now I'm going to bed. Head ache and weird sounds are coming with me.

birthdays and family

Been celebrating my gran's 75th birthday today. It was such a nice suprise for her and she was so happy for it too, though she didn't want to have a party. But it was more relaxed and with good food and good people. 

It was so nice to see my cousins and my auntie. I'd really love to be able to see them more often, but once or twice a year is what it has always been. Though it feels that we're getting closer and closer for each year. So much fun. 

Every now and again I spared a thought for my grandad, wishing of course that he could be there, but at least that he would know that my gran is doing fine and that she has a lot of people around her. 


I decided to go back to my mums tonight since I have a PT session with my friend tomorrow and I really need to review what I need to have started before school starts. Time flies. 

dreams

Was gonna go to bed and watch Ted. But I'm too tired. So I'm just gonna have a little stare at Tom instead, and then enter the world of dreams straight away.

Eve, Day, and another day

I was working Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, oh well, and Boxing Day too. So after work I spent Christmas Eve with my friend Emilie. I thought it was really nice. We saw Beauty and the Beast and then I fell asleep to Pocahontas. 

Then up at 6 am to work again, then I travelled to stay at my dad's last night. My stepmum had cooked the most delicious freaking turkey and ricepudding EVER. And the best part was that I got plenty of it for lunchbox today. Nice

Now I'm back at my mums house. They were having a full house board game night, which I missed since I worked evening today. 

I finally got to open my Christmas gifts, and some of them were super nice and needed, and some of them are just the same as last year, and the year before that. But hey, another PJ's and more slippers can never go wrong!?

Tomorrow I'm definately waking up doing some exercise and some vocal exercises. I feel physically fat and vocally out of shape. No good. No good.

Day Before Christmas Eve II

Oh I forgot to say. I have been watching training films... Almost the same as wctually following them. Eh, it's Christmas for god's sake.

Day Before Christmas Eve

Eh I've done no studying and no training today. I have been Skyping with my friend Emilie (?!) and made lunch and lunchbox for tomorrow, and packed my bags for my sleepover days at Emilie's. And I've stole a bag in box of wine from my mum. Well, I've borrowed it. And now it's time for me to get ready for work. Oh yeah.

I've been a good good girl

Yesterday I went back to work. It was quite nice to walk around in the night between each visit. And I only had nice ladies to go home to, so going back to work wasn't bad at all. Though it never really was, just always the dreading though before. 

I managed to squeeze in a little good deed before work too. It sounds aweful, but I like the needles. My friend Emilie sat next to me and we we're listening to Harry Potter. Sooooo good. 

So I've been all good since my return. Though I don't know if I get any gifts from Santa tomorrow since I still don't know if I'm going to my family or not. I'm working until 3.30 pm and taking busses on Christmas Eve is not something I wanna do. We'll see though, otherwise I'm having a cozy time with Emilie, since I'm staying at hers for a few days now.
 

the world didn't end yesterday II

So yes, the world didn't end. But I got payed. Crazy considering I haven't been working since September. It wasn't that much, but still...

the world didn't end yesterday

I spent esterday packing and doing some house work so that I don't have to start with cleaning and washing the first thing when I come back home after the holidays. 

I had a lovely time with Marie D's family, first going to her concert on Thursday night, which was amazing. The whole event was really good too, with music, poetry and a little bit of comedy. 

We ate a proper breakfast yesterday and it was really nice just to sit down and talk. Then I spent some good time with Steve before I finally went to the airport. 

The trip was as usual really boring, and it was crazy on both airports with a lot of waiting. 
My brother picked me up and I had a good time back to my mums house. Loads of talking and loads of music playing.. and a hamburger. 

Then I just sat up for a while. Went to bed and woke up in the middle of the night by my baby brother coming into my room, drunk, and saying "Hi sister". I told him to go away and fell right back to sleep. 


I'm gonna do a little training before getting ready. Then I'm gonna be a good person and donate some blood before going to work. I would have wanted to stay in London and work on my song with Andres, but it's quite nice to be here too I must say.

family time and stuff

Had a nice home cooked meal with the English family. Marie's mum came from Denmark today and it was just really nice to sit in the kitchen and eat and talk. 

So that mean I didn't get that much shit done in the end. But I did write a little on a new song. I'm taking that to my producer friend tomorrow to see if we can make some magic happen. 

Now it's time for bed. Training hard tomorrow and on Friday morning since I won't be able to train properly for the next week and a half. Though, I'm gonna try to squeeze in a session with Fabian, my PT friend.

New Years

So I just got invited to this New Year's Party. And for the first time in probabaly 8 years I'm excited about celebrating New Years, and celebrating it in Sweden... Before like 5 min ago I had in mind to do a granny at half ten. But now I'll probably do as the teenager I once was and go to work drunk and hungover at the same time. This can only be good. Just gotta suvive the end of the world first.

struck

I woke up at 5.45 am today. I was a little tired, but once I left the house I was fine. I spent a long time training quite hard, and a little while talking to the working people. 

I came home and I did my vocals with Marie, then boom, I got really really tired. So I decided I was gonna have a nap for 30 min. This evil nap didn't only last for 1,5 hours, I also woke up more tired than I was before. And my craving level is peaking. I do thinkleaving the house will wake me up, but I don't know if chocolate is the best reason to leave the house for.

good times

So at 8 pm I though I was gonna get ready for bed. Now it's 11 pm and I just got ready for bed. Been spending some quality time with the english family. Good good times, haven't been laughing this much in a while. And mostly we were laughing about me, or at me, or both. 

Anyways. Going up 5.45 am tomorrow. So, I'm gonna spend a little time with Mr. Grey and shoot off into an open minded dream world. Exciting.

XOXO

I'm gonna tell you about my very open minded day, but first.

OMG, Gossip Girl is over and out. I can't believe it. It's a little sentimental. Back four years ago I was chilling with my friend Vanessa in Hollywood every Monday evening watching this shit. Now, four years later it's over. And we all know who Gossip Girl is. Oh well. 


I woke up and felt very open today. I went to central to shop for my friend Emilie. Then I payed my old job a little visit, was nice to see the old chefs and whoever was working there when I was there a year ago. 

Then I walked to Holborn and payed Steve a short visit before going to the gym. Nothing wrong so far. 

On my way to the gym a guy stopped on his bike just to say hi and ask if I possibly wanted to grab a coffee sometimes. I said yes, for a later occation. 

Then a random gym guy came up to me and was a little too straight forward for me, but since I felt very open today I just had a little chat with him as well. 

Then I charity guy and I ended up talking for 30 min. And not about charity, though he managed to squeez that in for 2 min too. 

Yeah... I think I'm gonna stay open minded tomorrow as well. 
Gonns go to the gym for 7 am and just fill the day with stuff. Like an open box. 

party gone wild

Well, tonight didn't offer me much to be honest. A few Sudoko and a little Skype date with Emilie. It's half ten and I'm going to bed to read about Mr. Grey. Feels like the right thing to do. Been having these late nights lately, so one early wouldn't harm me.

time management

I did a little studying and a little of technique practice today. So I feel quite good about myself. Then I went to the gym to train my legs and glutes. I got a little distracted for a while, but I managed to finish my workout. Then I decided to walk home since it's quite mild in London these days and I might as well enjoy it. Plus I got company almost half of the way. 

Now I'm home, doing nothing and eating sweets. I might watch a film, or maybe try to study a little more. Only 4 days until I'm in Sweden. 

monday

Good morning everyone. 

I spent most of last night Skyping with my friends Emilie and Linnea. Really nice to talk to both of them. And when Emilie decided to go to bed, I continued talking with Linnea for another hour, with her getting a little tipsy. Just a regular Sunday night.

Then for some reason I decided that I was gonna stream the last Twilight film. As expected it was pretty shit. 

Today it's all sunny again, but I'm gonna stay at home for a while, get some shit done. Then of course. Gym time. Can't wait.

WHAT'S UP LIFE?

Okay, I have postponed this for far too long. So in short I will tell you about last weekend, about the gig, and about having my mum and my brother here. 

So, I arrived in Sweden last Friday.. where I spent the first night at my dad's. My brother and I got to sleep in a freaking trailer. It was pretty cold, yes. 

For the party my dad took me and my brother on a little shopping spree, since I wanted to go in jeans and a jumper, and my brother has gotten too big from training. Plus he got drunk on a wedding and lost his jacket. So below you can see my older brother, me, my dad and my big baby brother.

Picture below that is the whole "happy" family. I was in a pretty drunk state at this time that I'm actually suprised that I look rather good. 

Picture three is less than one hour later, in the car to my mums place. 

If I think about it, I probably had 2 glasses of champange, 5- glasses of white wine, 2 glasses of red wine, two snaps and for some reason I ordered whiskey and honey. (I thought that would help me and my soar throat)

Woke up the day after and couldn't actually have felt less hungover. Awesome!

 

I came back on the Sunday and the day after my mum and my big brother followed. At this point my throat was so soar I was really nervous about the gig. 

Tuesday night was the gig night. And to be honest, it did went okay. I will probably dread the playback of it. But my voice didn't break and people said it was really good. 

The day after my body couldn't hold it back any longer. BOOM and I had the worst cold ever. But school was over so I couldn't actually care less about that cold. Had a nice day out shopping and walking around with my mum and brother. We also went to the Imperial War Museum, which I though was a really nice museum. 

Ended the night watching the third film of Lord of the Rings, the extended version. About four hours long and I was the only one that managed to stay awake. I never stay awake to films, so this was news. 

They left on Thursday night. 

Then I finished my jazz draft and sent it in. BOOM, first term officially over.

 

This Friday I went to support Steve in a boxing event. He lost on split decision. But the whole evening was nice, and the main fight was bloody and exciting as fuck! It was also nice to meet some new people. It doesn't happen very often for me nowadays. Definately going to another event next year. 

 

Yesterday I went to the gym and in the evening I cooked a Swedish dish for Steve and watched Lord of the Rings, the first film. He has never seen any of it, and I wanna see them again before watching The Hobbit. So now I only have the second film left to see. 

Oh, and I've started my samba draft, but fucking Sibelus won't play back all the instruments, sooooo annoying. But still, I'm a pretty good girl. 

 

So, there you go. I'll go back to updating this shit more frequently like before. 

cheers

Soooo sorry I haven't updated anything for a while. I will do it. Soon. 

This is what I'm up to at the moment. 

Notice it's not even 3 pm. 

atcho

I will give you a proper review of the week that has passed. But Now I'm just a bit high on having my room on my own again, chocolate, spicy food and this weird weird feeling after spending two days sneezing like my life depended on it. My body is tired after all the sneezing, they are so powerful too.

offline

Haven't updated anyting for a week now, shame on me. I'll wait just one more day, pics will come as a bonus.

to infinity and beyond

I'm going to Sweden now. Here in London we have such a beautiful day outside, and I am feeling rather good today.

Just this weekend, Monday and Tuesday to get through, then we can get some rest. Though I'm planning on doing some serious work this break.

Anyways. I'm off, see you on the dark side.

Let it snow

I don't think I've realised that I'm going back to Sweden to meet this.

 

Total chaos.
And I don't even have my duvet jacket

music and stress

It has been so much going on I have forgotten to update this. Today I've spent most of my day in the studio recording a cover. It was a lot of fun but exhausting at the same time. I had to leave band rehearsal early just to go home and go to bed. So it's 9 pm and I'm in bed, just sorting out some things for tomorrow and then I'm off to sleep. I need to get well for tomorrow, that's just how it is. And I'm dreading going back to Sweden so much since I know the climate change is not to my benefit. 

I'm off, good night.

Oh Happy Day

So I went to school. The first two classes were, as usual, pointless to go to. But there I was anyways. I do think next week will be different. 

Then I had a half good one to one, since my voice has been weak from the cold I didn't do any singing and more talking. But I'm inspired and my teacher is excited for what my recital is gonna give. 

Then for the first time in our music performance class this year, out teacher gave us good words. And these were great words actually. He said we sounded professional. And that's what this function gig is all about. Well, we only got to workshop two songs, but still... 

And I had a good session at the gym. I increased my bench press to 8 reps times 30kg, for three sets. Wohoo.. 

Eh, yeah. And at last... we have heat and hot water. So I took a proper long shower after having a nice dinner that Marie cooked. I'm even sitting in my pj's and feeling slightly hot. I love it!

thoughts that maybe shouldn't be put next to eachother

I realise now that I'm a month late by talking about the death of my grandad, but anyways. I've been thinking about it today. 

I also have been thinking more about that intimate piercing. And I've planted a seed in my friends head, and we're gonna go through with it for a New Years Treat. Boom.

three years

Today it's three years since my grandad passed away. Time really is flying away from us, though in a way it feels like a lifetime ago I got that phone call at 11 pm with the horrible news. 

As long as we have memories, the people we lost will still have an impact on you.

Three years. I hope you're well.

fucking cold

This no heat is killing me. I hate it so much and it puts me in such a bad mood. If the guy doesn't come back tomorrow to fix it properly I'm gonna have a go on someone. A proper nasty go as well. It freaking December and we shouldn't have to go without heat. 

 I'm wearing double socks, double scarfs, bandana, hoodie and a freaking duvet.

I'm am not happy about this situation. Not one bit.

oh yeeaaah

Having the proper Christmas feelings here. Marie's parents has been here and we ate the rice pudding, and it has been so nice. We have to light all candles possible since the heating is off, and it's really cozy. 

Went for dinner with my brothers girlfriend and her friend. Was really nice to just sit and chat for a while. And once again I got reminded why I never go into central unless I have to. Soooooo crowded, and I always end up spending a little too much money for my own good. 

But I might have a little baby sitting job coming up, so that's nice. 

intimate

I woke up this morning and though that the idea of getting an intimate piercing was a good idea. Then I forgot about it, until now. I don't know, I might still consider decorating myself as well now when I'm all in the decorating spirit. Any thoughts on that?

Last Christmas I gave you my heart

I woke up really early today. Or 8.30 am. Just every-so-slightly hungover, but nothing massive. Spent a few hours in bed just catching up on a few shows and then We've been cleaning the house and playing christmas songs. I'm actually a little excited about it being first of December already.

stress and party

Yesterday was looong.

Woke up early to go down to school for 8 to practice. Did that for two hours, when I went to the gym before going home to gather myself, take a shower and eat lunch. Just when I arrived this guy came to sort out our shower because it has been a bit shit lately. Well, more than one hour later he was done and left us with no hot water at all. AND no heating working either. Pretty shit. 

So still no shower, but a lunch later I took a quick nap before goig to rehearsal where I was belting for two hours. Then I had to go to the gym to get that shower I so desperately needed. Nothing I could enjoy since I had to hurry home because my friend was coming over. I managed to lay down for like 20 min before she came. And I could just feel that my whole body hated me for stressing a lot this week. 

Well. She came, we got ready for the Christmas Gym Party, which we've been excited about for a long time now. It was fun, we drank a lot, danced a lot and got hit on a lot. I wasn't ready to go home, but for some reason I found myself on the bus home. My instincts are usually good, but I was in bed by half twelve. And alone. Not what I expected. But what can I do...?