day 91

Good times.

I met up with my ex, and we did the talking we should have done last time we met. I think I got my real closure, after 10 months. So good! If we're going to be friends or not can I not tell you, but whatever happens, I am very thankful for just being cool with him.

When I left him, I went home and I just felt so relieved that I started to cry. Then I started to write a song, and guess what. I even finished it! I think I'll call it Another man.

And today I am hanging out with Bri Bird. I'm her model, and I have the craziest makeup on me right now. We're gonna go and have some frozen yoghurt and have a photo session so I can pull off this look.

Otherwise... San Francisco is coming up. STOKED!

Bri bird

The last two days have been great. I've been hanging out with my friend Briana and we've been chilling on the beach. I also went for a run today to I guess what is my favourite place here in Hollywood, Runyon Canyon. It was hard but I loved it! I'm gonna do it again tomorrow morning. My stamina is pretty much non existence right now, so it's good for me that I have a strong will.

I will soon walk all the way back home from Bri. We're all tired and it's only 10.44 pm. So I see you another day folks.

Muah!

Love

So I met my ex boyfriend last night. It was cool, and in one way relieving. I was scared that perhaps I could have had feeling still, but forgotten. This proved me wrong. I still love the man, of course, but I am not in love. The only thing I could be in love with in this case is the memories of something that doesn't exist anymore, and that's like my love to Heath Ledger, who is dead. By meaning; will never happen.

The only person I am in love with is myself. And I am pretty good with that for now.

Cheers. It's a sunny day in Hollywood, I'm going home to get my running shoes!

wise words

I'm going to Hollywood in two hours and I am excited! My train will arrive in Downtown and then I get to get my ass and my 3 bags home. I love this.

And also, my ex boyfriend called me back yesterday so I'm going catch up with him later. It's been 9,5 months since the last time, so yeah I think I will be nervous when ever I see him. But I think it was about time to start talk again. I don't think you should puch away people because a relationship didn't work out. I meen, those are the few people that actually ment something and that doesn't have to change only because it didn't work out. Well, I think that's the rule and there are some dumb ass exeptions too! But at least not in this case, so I'm happy.

So I just finished my oatmeal (yuuuuummie) and I'm gonna try to figure out how to manage to get all I own into my bags. I'm telling you, it takes a brain or a lot of muscles to pack a bag.

Dear H-wood, I'm comming home.

I was thinking that I would go and visit my old home, Hollywood. And here's the great fucking deal... I'm going to have my own studio apartment the whole time.

So I'm gonna enjoy myself walking on the beaches of Santa Monica and Venice, hike up the Runyon Canyon, walk around the streets of Downtown, go to the movies, maybe even take a tour bus and hang out with my friends.

I'm going to take it easy, because I know that after my birthday my time here will be hectic as hell. There will be no more settling down before I go home. But that's how I want it.

Man, men

San Diego was so much fun and my hosts were amazing in all ways possible! But now I am back in OC with Vanessa, even though she's out partying with her friends... I'm still a baby for 3 more weeks, and I am waiting with patiens to experience the clubs, again...!

So what do one do when one can't do anything?

That is a pretty good question if I may say so myself. After over nine months I decided a couple of days ago that I was going to call the first love I had in my life, who happens to live in Hollywood. I was actually nervous, sincerly. But then there was no answer, and not the eight other times I tried either. And nighter did I get an answer to the mail I sent. So what do I do, give up? I just think if the guy doesn't want anything to do with me, he could at least be a man telling me so, right?

And tonight I've been chatting with a lovely guy from home. You know, for me when I travel I tend to forget to think of people and feel at the same time. I do think of people at home, but it's just thoughts. I wouldn't say I miss anyone, but when I sit down and really feel love for them, I do, I miss them. Anyways, he is really nice, he gives me goosebumpes.

whatever

San Diego is great! I am having such a good time here, and the guys I'm staying with are just so cool. The moment I entered the door I felt at home.

Yesterday we were 6 couchsurfers (3 british girls and 3 swedish girls) staying here, so we ended up having a big party before we went to this 70's funk party. So so so much fun.

Today the two swedish girls and I went to Balboa Park. It was cool, a lot of things to see. Then we took a walk by the beach. It was cold and windy, but I really have had cravings for walking, so I enjoyed every second of it. On our way back to the house, which by the way has the most amazing view over San Diego, we got lost and drove around trying to find our way. We did, after a while.

The british girls left tonight, and the swedish girls are leaving tomorrow morning. So it will be me and the guys. I don't mind.

Tomorrow am I going to explore Downtown and an island which name I can't remember right now. I will also probably have the time to go to the Seal beach where there're a lot of seals hanging out. And also flamengos.

Now when everyone has gone to bed I stayed up and did some planning for my trip. Now I have some kind of plan and I think it's a good one. I'll tell you all about it another day, I'm going up quite early tomorrow for my adventure.


Goodnight!

San Diego

I'm going to San Diego in 1,5 hour. It sure will be fun! Depending on how much fun, I did not know when I want to go back. So I have not booked my ticket back here. But I guess I'll go back on Tuesday och Wednesday.

The only thing I know I want to do for sure when I get there is to go to SeaWorld... and spend some time at the beach! I've lost my tan.

So if you not hear from me during the next couple of days, you know where I am having fun.

Love

my phone

One thing I like is my new phone.

It's only one person* who has my number, and since I'm with her all the time, my phone should be silence, right?

Well. it's not. I get a lot of strange calls from lost people. I like it since I don't have that much friends.

My number is 714 204 1410, if you need me by any chance.


*That was a lie. There's like 5 people that have my number. Way to go.

Day 80-somthing

My couch in San Diego is settled, feels really good. I will probably leave tomorrow, but a friend back in Hollywood just invited me to a party, so it might have to be om Sunday. We'll see, it's Vanessas call and I'm happy either way.

Today we're going to hang out by the pool, so this will be just another lazy day. I like it, but I don't. You know, when I left Brazil I was in quite good shape. Now I'm not, no kidding. There's no shape what so ever, and now you can't even get a hint of the abs I had 1,5 months ago. I don't like it at all.

St Patrick's day 2

Yesterday was not a party day for me. They all went to a bar, and since I'm still consider as a baby in this country, I stayed home and fell asleep to the movie Departed.

I also ate almost 493 grams of liqourice too, so I think it's time for that run I've been longing for so much...

Wazup

Yesterday Vanessa took me to a saloon where she used to work. It was time to become a woman again. So I waxed my legs, my armpits and Missy down there. All this for a price of 70 bucks, which is just a bit more then what I pay to get my friend waxed at home. Awesome!

The woman waxing me was hilarious too, and she invited me to come stay with her if I wanted to. She lives by the beach, apparently a famous beach I've never heard of but the one next to Newport Beach. Maybe that's not a bad idea, now when I'm not a monster anymore...

St Patrik's day

Today is a party day. An Irish party day. I remember last year in Hollywood on exactly this day. It was a great one! Anyways... I'm gonna shape up from my jetlag by taking a nap later. I really don't want to miss this, or even worse, being a party-pooper. No no.

Jetlaged and happy

So now I've been here a couple of days. I am loving it so much.

So on the Saturday we went over to a friends house to watch some kick box game but we ended up playing series after series of Beer Pong and we also had some serious Rock band session. They all were so excited to show me how they do it in the OC. So we ended up comming home around 6 am. Fun fun fun!

The other days we have just been hanging around. The jetlag has kicked in, so I am tired in the afternoons. No kidding, I fall asleep on the couch and they can't wake me up. Tonight was actually the first night I slept in the bed!

Oh and one last thing.

We went to Hollywood yesterday. I felt so wierd, almost like a heartache but not really. Overwhelming for sure! We're going there for a short while later today as well. Vanessa is having her finals this week, that's why. But I guess Hollywood is the place I really want to be in right now anyways...

La la land

Hey folks, I'm in LA. Finally, this is like what I've been waiting for for about nine months. I just had an amazing time before this.

Yesterday I went out with my cousin, her ex-boyfriend and his room mate. I got really drunk after two beers, so cheers to that. I was still drunk when I woke up this morning too... But I made it (barely) in time to Heathrow and the check in. The flight was long and boring and my friend Vanessa and her mom picked me up from LAX.

Tonight we're going to some fight-thing and having something to drink. I am kind of tired, but I had a nap earlier, so I shoould be fine for a couple of hours.

Muah!

London last

This is my last night in London and I am suppose to wake up in four hours. Great, I am totally stoked! Otherwise it's been a night of ups and downs I guess. Well I just came back home from a new friend. 

And here's the news. 

I didn't get into the school, but I didn't really get rejected either.. I just have to prove myself here during summer course, which I will for sure. Now I guess it is time to fall asleep, not really tired, but I need to wake up and sort out how I am going to get all of my stuff into my backpack tomorrow. 

Cheers. 

enough

My cousin and I just got back after a day of shopping, again. So now I have another pair of pans, two t-shirts, one pair of shoes, stockings and another pair of sunglasses. Yah yah, my bag is full again, but I like travel and look good too. It is possible. Love my Boliviano pants!!

Have a little faith and some confidence

D-day is over. It was fun, I did good. Not as great as I know I can, but I think maybe good enough to get in. Hopefully!  I will probably know tomorrow or on Monday. So IF I do not write here with overexitement you will probably know why. 

So if (when) I get in, I will only stay in Sweden for less then 1,5 months before it is time to move to London for the shit. Wow, that is nothing, but hey, this is what I want. 

Tonight I spent the evening with my father. We had drinks and ate Sushi. Very awesome expensive Sushi. I love him, he is the best. He is going back to Sweden tomorrow, so we said our goodbyes, and I also gave away some of my luggage, now I am back to one bag, instead of two and one instrument. Great. 

Tomorrow is shopping, packing bags and night life on my schedule. Now I am going to wash off my make up and curl up next to my cousin. Movie time. 

MUAH!

Hola Papi

My Dad is in London. Just to see me. 

We had a lunch and then we walked around inside Harrods just to find some crazy ass toilets. We never found them though. Then we rushed around inside the Natural History Museum before we got back to his hotel where we both passed out. 

Later we met up with my cousin and had some Italian food at some cozy restaurant. Very very nice. Now I am off to bed. Tomorrow is the big life changing day for me. I have my audition, so wish me good luck and have your fingers crossed. I have not been nervous yet, but I am starting to feel some tingeling in my belly. Think I need to go to the bathroom perhaps. 

Anyway, I will let you know all I have to say about everything tomorrow. Until then, good night! 

Jetlag

I just realize why I have a hard really time to wake up in the morning.

JETLAG. 

Oh Dear, and it is almost time for me to leave this place and go back eight hours again. Need... rest... 

Me

Just came back home from the cinema. Alice in Wonderland was great, but I think I'm not going to see it again any time soon. And 3D is always fun to watch. 

Tomorrow my dad will come, so we're going to have a "daddy-daughter"-time, which will be cool! Miss the old man you know. Other than that... no idea. I'm not really tired or so, but I will take off the mask I wear and the destructive shoes on my feet and become my own self again. Not that I don't like dressing up, but I like me. You kind of realize that after a while.

Paper plane

I am uploading pictures on Facebook and listening to music. These are things I have not been able to do whenever I wanted. You just realize a lot of things when you go from a place like Bolivia to a place like England. 

And I am drinking tea in a bed with white sheets. 

I have make up on my face. 

I can flush down the paper in the toilet. 

Hot showers. 

Luxury. 

You do learn a lot while traveling and I am so grateful. I don't think you could understand how much. 

Oh Dear!

So yesterday was hard, but as always I manage to get something good out from the bad. Like a Pizza hut pizza and another friend. 

Arriving at Edenhurst avenue and to get into the warm nice house was nice, but there was no cousin there. She came half running as soon as the man in the house called her phone. Dear cousin, lovely to see you again. 

Slept for about eleven wonderful hours tonight. Well needed I can assure you all! Then today we went to... of course.. Primark. You see, I don't have that much space in my bag, but still I manage to buy: 

1 pair of pants

1 play suit

1 jacket

1 dress

2 tops

20 pair of socks

2 pair of over-knee socks

10 pair of knickers

3 pair of sunglasses

1 scarf

waxstripes 

I don't know if that's all, but you get the picture... haha, I just really love myself sometimes. 

After my cousin is done working we're heading to our old favourite bar "The Slug", which obviously is called something else now. After one or two snakebites we're going to the movies to see Alice in Wonderland in 3D. STOKED! 

I need a break

So, I'm in London and don't know where the hell to go. I am tired and it is cold. Stupid as it is I did not get the street address from my cousin before I left. So I have nowhere to go and right now everything just sucks.

End of chapter one

Hey folks.

It's time for me to leave La Paz and SA. I sure had fun during my 66 days here. As for now I don't really feel like going somewhere. Just too tired. Last night was fun, and I ended up having a bed after all. Really nice. Not much sleep though.

So yeah. 30 hours to get to London. Not in the mood, but I know when I get there it will be absolutely awesome, can't wait! Also my dad is suppose to meet me up for one daddy-daughter day. As I said, awesome!

So long friends.

Lake Titicaca, Copacabana, Isla del Sol

I just came back from my last adventure here in Bolivia. I payed a visit to the worlds highest lake, Titicaca. I went out on Isla del Sol and had a four hour hike around it. It was stunning in all ways possible, just wow again.

And Copacabana is just a sweet little town. And waking up at 5.30 today with singing voices coming from the church was so nice.

I ended up hanging out with 3 Canadians, which was very cool. We played Scrabels yesterday. I lost, of course, but it was fun anyway!

And also, I was a bit scared not being able to come back, or at least not by bus. It has been a strike going on among the bus drivers. They want to keep their rights to drink and drive. I think this is just hilarious, but serious indeed. There's so many traffic accidents here that it's crazy.

I think I lied before... that wasn't my last adventure. It will be tonight. I have decided to not check in anywhere, since I pretty much know how late the partying will be tonight. Last night at the Wild Rover, and it happens to be "Shock your mom" as dress code. This will be fun.

Marked for life

I, Emily Anger Bergstrom, have a tattoo.

Took like 10 minutes, didn't hurt that bad. But I almost fainted afterwards. Kind of cool feeling I have to say.

Now I am going to have a well deserved Banana shake!

Oh, and it's a white tattoo.