I've earned it

I'm actually still in bed. And it's 16.39 now. I've been on Skype talking to my mum for quite some time, and now I'm just lazy. I'm still going to the gym, and then straight to Elin. But she's gonna skype herself around 7 pm, so I'm not in a hurry, am I?

Over and out

I am DONE! I mean litterally done. No more transcription for me. more then writing it out nicely on a chart, and maybe change something if I'm wrong somewhere.

Time to do something fun. Like a workout!

now then!

I've had a small (over an hours break) doind not much. Now I'm gonna finish this shit and put it behind me. Bye!

Singing

I love singing, I love music. That has always been, will always be.
Going to this school is opening my eyes for a world I actually only thought would remain in my dreams. I want this, not only in my dreams. Always, forever.

A few days ago I found my old song book with so many unfinished songs. They're not perfect, but they're mine. They're my memories and my stories to be shared.

mummy

So my mum has booked a flight to come and see the next school gig we have in March. I'm really excited about that because she has never really seen me sing. Only strutting around at home.

Facking transcription poop

So I promised myself earlier today that I wouldn't leave the house untl I'm done transcribing Robben Ford's song I can't stand the rain. It's an assignment, so I have to do it til the end of this term, I'm not just geeking around. But still.

It's been around two hours now, and I am so tired of it. I only have like two more bars (10 seconds or something) but my ears has shut down on me. It's my day off and I want to go to the gym and relax.

Haha, but once I'm out and done with the gym, I'm going to meet up with Elin. We're gonna study some more. Compare our transcriptions and practise some harmonies. And then enjoy doing nothing and watch The Tudors.

That is if I ever get done...

Prima Ballerina

Had a fiest at Nando's with Elin and my bf yesterday. So much food, and we ate it all.
Then Elin ans I went to see Black Swan. I thought is was really good, but I think only for Natalie Portman's acting. One scene was just amazingly real. And of course the dancing as well. I wonder how much bigger ballet will become this year.

But all in all, I can't really decribe it, the film was basically same same through the whole film. I don't know, it totaly worth seing, but I don't think it will be my film of the year. But Portman deserves that Oscar for sure!!

DJ Anger

I'm like the DJ at the third floor at Fenwick. The music is shit there, so as always; make the change you want to see. So DJ Anger volum II is out tomorrow. People have been naging me about making another one sice ther're playing the first one over and over again.

That took about 1,5 hours to create too... Time to sleep like the baby next to me.

heroes and thieves

Today I got some money from CSN too. So now I can buy my tickets home to Sweden.
I also payed my rent and almost converted to Barclay's (not).

And I found found out that I know a princess.
Pretty darn cool if you ask me.

Nerdy

Finished school 1,5 hours ago. Still here, doing great with some harmonies for the horn section in Cut the Cake. Elin and I are just a bunch of nerds.

Bad Day, Good Night.

I had a really shit day today. I was just really sensitive to exactly everything and, well, I ended up crying of frustration. I hate when you just can't step out from a bad mood.

I just want so much but I feel that there is so many things that are holding me back sometimes. And because I am a pure hard worker, people take me as a harsch and stressed person. Usually I just shake it off, but today I just couldn't.

Even though I was tired I made it too the gym. I think that was the best thing I could do to shake off the negative inside.

And the call from my dad made me quite a bit more happy too. I miss home. I think I'll book myself a weekend sometime soon. I really feel that I need it.

The best thing I could do now is to get a good night's sleep and hopefully that massage my bf dearly wanted to give me. I'll be back with those news.

hej

I had a great practise day today. I am almost proud of myself. Not too proud of what I had for dinner; a ham sandwich and sweet liqourice.

Bye.

felizidades

Good morning. Litteraly. I've gone back to my transcription and I think it's going well. It sure is hard, but you learn so much from doing it.

Now I'm going to the gym and then to school for some more practise.

And I just wanted to say happy birthday to my friend Kalina from school. I will see you tonight for a drink.


Have a good day peeps!

where the lines overlap

Yesterday I found my songbook where I write whatever melodies, lyrics and frases that comes up in my head. Haven't used it since I moved here I think. I think mainly because my job is the most uninspiring place in the world, and I don't have that much time. But it felt good to read what I've written in the past. One day soon I'll be able to but music to my own lyrics, that will be epic!

Good Monday

I was sent home earlier from work today. I went to school and practised for about one hour. Felt like making up for a wasted Sunday. Even skipped the gym and had a dinner out woth my bf instead, totally with a good consience. Now I'm happy, full and have new painted green nails. Can't wait for school tomorrow!

fuk

This is an off day off... I'm trying to study but I'm constantly falling asleep. Theory is fun, but my brain gets fo tired after five minutes.

I feel like it's so late already and that I've come nowhere with all my studies. It's five o'clock.

So I'm gonna stick with this for another 30 minutes. I really want to continue on my transcription, but there are people in the house and therefore a big distraction. I don't live here, but I'm just saying. Haha.

I think I want another go at the gym too.
Plus i kind of promised my bf to change the sheets.

saturday

Yesterday was dead quiet and today really busy. You never know what happens at work. But I am happy because I even made it to the gym. But I realized that I forgot my wallet at work, so I had to eat cereal for dinner.

I am off tomorrow, and I promise myself it's gonna be such a productive day. And I might even clean my bf's flat a bit too, if I have time for it....

priority

I totally love school. I'm gonna do whatever it takes to get into the second year. I really wish I didn't have to work so that I could focus on music and everything that comes with it. Sometimes I wonder if it just wouldn't be worth taking a loan after all...

But here I am, working. And the teachers are talking about me. In a good way. Or, teachers tell me that other teachers are talking about me. That's a good thing and I'm really proud of myself.

But speaking of work. I was offered a shift at the Saachi Galleri in Sloan Square. I'm a desperate worker that takes on whatever I have time for, in this case this Sunday. But then I was thinking back to when I first moved to London in July. When I applied for a job there, the gay manager called me a stripper, or lap dancer (can't remember which), and some other chick didn't want to hire me because of the people recomending me. So actually, now when I think about it, I feel like having my Sunday off, focusing on the thing I came to London for in the first place.

On the edge of breaking down

Today I almost died at work. Not litteraly, but yes, you could say that to, of boredom. I litterally sat on a stool staring out in the air for about one hour straight. So I told my vice manager that if they're gonna put me up there more then one day a week I'll quit.

I mean it!

But gumtree didn't have much to offer, so I guess I'll have to start selling illegal guns like they do on Sons of Anarchy.

I can't stand the rain.

So today has been good. Eh, but yeah, I was now setteling for some serious studying, trying to do my transcription of robben ford and my stupid ass pressed delete. So I only had it on my old iPod, and now I don't have it at all. Three bars was all I managed to get done .Fuck me!

Swollower

Oh and this morning I felt hungry even though I had my breakfast and an apple on the way to work. So to my suprice I found a giant scones penis just laying there, sent from the kitchen. I can tell you a started with the balls and went straight fot the penis head. I enjoyed every single mouthful I took. I bet my bf wish that was him.

naaah sewenga, sawabisibabah

Went out with to have some drinks (water for me) with Elin, my bf and his Southafrican friends. I had a blast I have to say. One of the guys were just hilarious and I cried from laughing so much. That felt insainly good.

Then of course my baby ass thought it was quite late (it's about midnight now) so I went home. Feel like being fresh tomorrow, have a round at the gym, go with bf for some shopping and then study. I got a Mertit on my theory test without being the best student, so I figure if I put down some more time on every class I go to, I would probably do pretty good when the final exam come.

So, good night.

at least he was polite...

Work was unusal busy today. Not really time to read. Not because it matters... The book is not entertaining.

One entertaining thing though was when I went to the beauty saloon to get a wax done. They were just about to close and before me was a guy who wanted to to get a tan. I said; "I just want a quick brazilian, do you have time for that? Pleeeaase." Then this guy turned around and said; "I can do it if you like." I guess that was some kind of flirting, I was just laughing at him. He quickly left to get his fake tan. And I got my waxing done.

I remember that that like it was four years ago

My bf had me and Elin as his guineapigs today for his work trial next week. So we got four dishes to try out. Now I can say that he can actually cook, because that was amazing and I'm in a food coma. Going to bed now. School was amazing and I can't believe it's already over, or well, I'm going to work tomorrow and all.... So See you.


Oh, and happy 4th anniversary Dad and second Mum.

SOA

The Series Sons of Anarchy is, believe it or not, really good.

Today has been a really good day. I slept in a bit. 7.40 am is a sleep-in for me, or so it seems since I woke up by my self feeling all cheerful.

I had a chat with my beloved mum whom I haven't spoken to in a few weeks. Planning on getting her to come over, so that would be nice.

I did eventually go to the gym, and did a hard and short work out before I took the bus up to Notting Hill.

My friend Elin came back from Sweden today to I spent time cleaning her flat, practising on her piano and singing some songs I'm gonna do for my exam. Things are looking up in other words.

We hung out for a bit and it's nice to have someone (my bf is great, but someone else then him) to chat and just hang out with.

Oh, now I've cooked for the first time in ages, so I have a lunch box with me to school tomorrow, plus a bag of carrots. I can't wait for school.

Now I'm heading out to hand back the shitty film Killers we rented last night. Totally worthless, exept from Ashton Kutchers smoking body.

If this world makes you crazy

I miss travelling quite a lot. I've been thinking about the past few days and I miss that pure feeling you have of whatever it is you're feeling. I miss the people I met one year ago in Brazil. They made a huge impression on me, and I would be such a happy girl to see them a second time.

Living in London makes me a bit crazy with everythink going on and no time for resting. But I've had my travel days and I need my hard work. I do wanna stand on stage preforming. Nothing else. And if that means to live like this for, how long? Then that's what I'll do.

Gotta get ready to leave bed now.
Gonna be helping my bf to pick out some new clothes for an important meeting.

day off

So on my day off I'veonly left the bed once. Well it's still only 9.23 am, but the only thing I have done is to clean the toilet. What's up with that.

Hey my friends. Internet is back so yeah here you have me.

Sttill don't have much so say since I've been working every day, litteraly. But yesterday I worked at another place, in Royal Albert Hall to be exact, where Circus Solace is having their shows. Starting of kind of exciting, not knowing where to go and the manager's number I was given didn't answer her phone.

When I finally was picked up by some dude named Tom, or something, I was shown to the Jazz restaurant I was suppose to be in. Really nice place, and in the middle of the room was this huge red Yamaha piano, which used to be Elton Johns. And guess who was there fingering the keys. Me.

Eveything was, kaotic but nice up till after lunch, before the second show was about to start. But during our break I let myself in to one of the balconys for a sneek peek of the show. Amazing!



Wel to make things short here, I was going mental of how bad the staff were. And I'm a pretty bad waitress myself, but these people, not all of them of course, just didn't have any common sence of how to serve people. And when they gave me stained coffee cups with nothing even like a latte or a cappuccino, I almost lost it. And no, they didn't let the one who actually knows how to make coffee do them. I was the one being ashamed giving them to the customers, so I actually at two occations just asked the customer; Are you happy with this Latte, the answer was of course NO.

But then I backed off, it's not my workplace and don't hae to come back ever again. It's ashame though, since I kind of enjoyed the busyness instead of sitting on my ass going mental at the bar I'm working at.


But today I am off! woooohooo

5 of January.

Sorry for the bad update... Still not much going on, but I don't have internet anywhere (which I mush say is quite nice actually)

So what do I say after a moment of silence?

I miss school? Yes.
I've become a gym maniac, training at least once a day? Yes.
And yes, I did fall asleep before 00.00 on New Years.... I'm so cool.

Eh.

The pub I'm sitting in (the only place with wifi in Earls Court this time at night) asked for my ID when I wanted to buy my portion of chunky chips. I thought that was a bit over the top funny.

Oh, and around this time last year I was getting my ass burned at the beach of Ipanema. Really want to go back. Tickets are only about 700 Pounds if you book them now... Temtations temtations...