looking for a home

So I don't have to go to school before 2 pm today, and we're just gonna take photos and have a small introduction and the chance to meet all of the HNC (one year course) students. So hopefully we get the timetable today, so I can sort work out for following weeks.

But it's a good thing we're not starting earlier, because today I'm going to this agency to look at a place to live. I really hope to get this bed sit I've found. Then I would have my own room with my own kitchen in it. Nothing shared, I think.

Well, I'm starving for porridge now.

we've got tonight

Yesterday's first day in school was amazing. I met so many new people and I think me and the singers hit it off really fast. It's a bit scary because all of them have had training and music history, and here am I having nothing else but my dad's wedding and my graduation. Oh and the summer course. But I take it as if I'm already up to that quite high standard. If not I'm gonna show them all when I am capable of.

Yesterday we kind of only had tests so that we will be studying with people on the same level. I did really good on both of my tests, so I'm happy.

Then I was travelling around London to find my boyfriend who apparently was working at my job yesterday. Then we went home and had some food just before I had to go to the bowling place to meet up with my friends.

We had such an amazing time and I really like those people a lot, all different. And I got 100 points on my game, making me a shared 2nd place. Not too bad.

back to class

Today is the first day in school. I could't tell you how excited I am! So it's time to go up and have a good porridge breakfast with fresh strawberries and raspberries, a shower, and find a way to make my hair co-operate with me.

After school I'm going out bowling with some guys from the summer course, so that will be fun too. One of the girls are moving back to San Francisco, so we had to gather to say good bye.


Well, update will come!

hola hej hey

I'm home safe. So yeah. Bye

very last

We're all good. Really good. And I'm tired, so will probably sleep the whole way there. Or maybe I should try to stay awake since my bf is sick and might be really tired when I get there. I hope not, I want to 'cuddle'.

Still considering runing down to the store to buy sweets.
Just so you know. And I'm getting bored waiting

Grandmum, come already!

Last

Hey ya'll!

This will be the last thing from Sweden for this time. I'm all packed, I think, and waiting for my grandmum to come. I haven't bought any sweets yet so I feel good about myself, haha. I bags are quite heavy even though I didnät pack THAT much. I hope I'll be fine. Or no, I'm gonna bring out the scale and see, don't want to throw anything away at the airport.

As we go on we remember...

It's so nice to meet up with a good old friend. Even though we only had an one hour long breakfast it's enough to just appreciate someone. We came to the conclution that we've known eachother for the past sixteen (16) years! We don't see eachother that much but everytime we do it's like time has stopped.

It's true what they say that you only have a hand full of friends. Good friends. The rest come and go.

Speaking of leaving. I have to make sure I'm all packed before my grandmum picks me up in about 4 hours. I'm thinking about buying sweets with me for days I feel like it. But there's not a single day I don't feel like it, so I don't know, maybe it's for the best and I can have less tasty sweets in England.

And though they say it's possible to me...

I almost fell asleep in the bath, but eventually I managed to get up.
From then until now I've been packing my bags and just lala around. I can't believe how slow I am and how much shit I'm putting into my bag. Not okay.

Gotta sleep, I'll deal with this tomorrow.

go fetch

My mum also drove to work with my phone, so she had to turn around. I have no strength and it's too cold, so I sent my brother instead, not saying what it was he had to pick up.

show me your teeth

My mum just tested my blood sugar level. I had 6.2 and she had 5.5, so she beated me. You'r suppose to be between around 3 and 6.


I chilled out with my friend tonight. I am so happy, because both of our lifes are going great right now. I wish I had more time to spend with her and some other of my friends. But life is life and I know they'll stick around.

Now I'm gonna treat myself with a bath and then pack everything for tomorrow. I'm going up early to go and have breakfast with my oldest friend I still see every now and then.

dolphins

Work today was quite hard on an emotional stage. Wont get into detail but yeah... but in the end it was good anyway. I really like coming back to work like this sometimes.

Now I've had home made pizza and am going to my friend. Will borrow my mums car, so that's nice.


laters.

I'm gonna live forever

I did get up today.

I've been looking forward to go back home to London, and I really do! But I think it's always like this for me my last day before I leave. I want to stay for just a bit longer.

This time being home has been different too. I've been working, maybe a bit too much. But I do what I need to do, and I felt like working is what I needed right now. It's not an easy life I chosed to live, but this is what I want, so therefore I have to work hard to get it.

I also started to watch FAME yesterday. It makes me motivated and scared at the same time. There are so many paople out there reaching for the same thing. I just have to reach a little further. Even though it's not the fame I want, I guess that is included if you play music with a great band.


Last day for work....

just relax

So what about today?

It started with me oversleeping and almost getting late to work. But work is so easy so during my working hours today, I managed to take care of the oldies, have a 50 min long walk, buy two necklesses and one bag with real snake skin on a flea market they held where I work (some lady passed away), chill out a bit more, and as well go a bit early. I'm not complaining here.

Then I had a 30 mins long walk to were I had my piewie waxed, no pain.

Met up with my beloved friend Emilie, who was visiting me in London a while ago. We had dinner with my mum and had a walk over to her place. I played some SEGA games, Sonic the Hedgehog 2 to be correct. Then I walked home. I tried to work out, but after a while I got bored.

Now I'm gonna have a shower and go to bed. I won't wake up 10 mins before I have to leave home tomorrow again.

work and a day off.

Working yesterday was a bit of a chaos. Sometimes time just flies away and you found yourself being over half an hour late to the next oldie. Things got sorted out pretty well, but I just couldn't get how it got that way.

In about one hour I'm going to get killed at the gym by my friend. I am so looking forward to that. And tonight I'm having dinner with my dad and my second mum and some friends of our. Looking forward to that too.

So now I have about one hour until I'll meet up with my friend, I'm going to use that to clean the kichen and scream to loud music. I feel that I've already lost my vioce a bit. Need exercise!

hair day

So I cut my hair and changed the colour. I don't know what to say it's..... different. It's not ugly, but I miss my old hair a bit. But I always hate my hair right after cuting it. In a weeks or two I will know how to rock this hair-do too. I just knowthere will have to be a lot of pins and hairspray for when I go to work and I can't have hair falling down. And I would have shown you a picture of the whole thing, but something's wrong and I can't upload pics anymore. But I can say as much as this. It's like an old lady's hair. Someone even said I looked a bit like Princess Diana.

Fun.
No, not really...

exitement day.

I woke up when my phones ringed this morning. They wanted me to work, and usually I would get up and hurry to work. But today I'm going to the hairdresser. I have no idea how I want my hair to be, and I guess I'm gonna get her advise before. I really like being blonde, but at the same time I've never tried something else. Or my friend once gave me redish-pink slings and silver white at the same time. That made me cry when I got the nick name Mermaid silversling.

Today will be different. I have such a great feeling and I guess it all depends on that ir's sunny and not a single could in the sky. Thank you Mother Earth. Rain can be so depressing. So now I'm going to the food store before I go for a run. Then it's time to look like something else.

GAAAH!

cheeees

Todays work turned out as usual to be a very pleasant part of my day. I love working with people, I guess of all kinds.. maybe not kids, but I wouldn't know.. haven't tried them. Not intending to eighter until the day I end up pregnant or something.

I also worked with a really lovely girl, so that makes it even more fun.

Then my bf called me. It makes me really happy. Then he called twice and even four times today. Now he's telling me cheesy things, and actually I kind of like that too.

I'm having a great time at home, even though it's constantly raining and I don't do much more then working and exercising. But I am looking forward to go home. I miss music already and I miss school. But it's only one more week left til school starts, and I'll be back on Monday. So you should appreciate today.

Good night!

mmm :)

Today I learned that it get so much heavier to run when it's raining.

After my extremly delivering run/work out, I came home and since then I've been watching a few episodes from the third season of True Blood. Now I just had a spa-ish shower and in about one hour I have to go to work.

I really felt like this lazy day, and from tomorrow I will have no more lazy days until I get back home to London. I have to look after my friends while I'm here, but it's awfully hard when almost all of them are working daytime, and I'm working in the evenings...

yeah yeah

Wow, I feel that I'm becoming this bitter person if I'm gonna continue writing angry stuff here. The thing is, I couldn't bother much less about these people ignoring me. It's sad that things have become as they are. But seriously, if people that close to me can't take the truth or are threatened by the fact that I'm not scared of giving them a hard time if there's something on my mind, why should I bother? This is not a perfect Barbie world we're all living in. It's just you, me and the fact that we're all different.

Then the thing is... I do bother. I do care. I don't know how many times my friend who stopped talking to me in January hasn't picked up the phone, or how many times my cousin ignores me in every way possible. These are the people I thought so high of, that I would kill for. And after all this time, I still think "maybe next time she'll pick up the phone", even though that most likely won't happen.

And the thing that makes me furious is not the fact that they don't want to talk to me, it's because they don't even get me a chance to know the reason. And even if I did something wrong and owe an appology, at the end of the day, I never get the chance to give it. So I'm asking myself, why sould I bother? Is it worth it? Things obviously don't last forever.


With this said, a run will do me good.
Ciao.

ass holes

I still wonder why my cousin doesn't want to talk to me. I can't come up with one reason actually. Or maybe I can, but then again she stoped talking to me before that. So no, I have no idea. And no one else seems to know a shit eighter, or are telling me "I don't want to a part in it".

So I guess I have to live with the fact that people are ass holes, because the fact that you can't even talk to your own best friends or your blood related, to me, makes you an ass hole. And I'm sorry for being harsh, but the thing is. I rather live in a harsh world than in a world full of lies.

And I guess you could say I'm an ass too, but at least I'm not pretending to be someting else. I'm that honest ass that wouldn't lie to you to make you feel better, I'm the kind that would tell you the truth and tell you to suck it up but have you cry on my shoulder for as long as you needed to.

Truce

So me and the guy talked. He called me. Or really I was texting him first. But anyways, the last arguments has been cleared and he gave me a well deserved appology. I said it was okay, but that he still has to make it up to me.

I have a few things in mind, which I won't tell. If he knows me, he knows how to make things up to me. And a clue. It's not jewleries or fancy restaurants.

I really feel that I want to go back to London. Not that I don't like being at home, I love it, even though it has almost been raining ever since I landed a week ago, but I want to start this whole lifestyle for real. I have to be patient, one more week.

life and death

Sometimes I think horrible thoughts... like taking someones life. But it for that persons own sake.

Working with older people is quite hard sometimes. It's a really great job, but every now and then you go home to a lady that can't do anything on her own, not eat, drink, sit and barely talk. She lays in her bed, with not a sign of fat on her body, stiff as a stick, without being able to comunicate normal. She's the loveliest most greatful person I've met, but I think that she feels that her time has come.

So I wouldn't think my thoughts is that horrible after all. I think that who ever gets to take someones life should think about which life he choses. Because then you have these people, happy and are living a quite healty life as far as I know. Maybe they have a bad sight, but that's pretty much it. They are the ones fighting against cancer.

But life isn't fair. Never has been, never will be.
We can all just hope we're the lucky one.

I just can't let it go, can I?

I'm not angry, but I just can't stop thinking about this small thing that happened to pierce into my brain and gave birth to annoying thoughts.

I just have a small question.
Since Facebook the the official website everyone is using, and people even say that if you're not friends on Facebook you're not officially friends. I would say that's bullshit... but is it really? I don't know. The thing is then. What happens if you're friends on FB and then chose to delete a person from your contact list. What does it make that person? And even more sick. If that person is your girlfriend. Was that a break-up statement? Is it really that easy to get rid of a person you're suppose to care for?

The thing is, I'm hurt and that's why I get angry instead. I'm not usually the person showing emotions when I'm hurt, but here I am, trying to get it out of my mind by writing. I'm not here trying to provoke anything to become this massive thing, I just happen to have a lot of shit in my head and the best way to think clear is to put in on paper. Let feelings flow, then let them go.

last warning

That was a good run in a perfect chilly weather. I am calm and at ease.

I talked to my mum about the whole boyfriend situation, and even though she's not a person I go to for relationship advise, she made me realize a few things.

She told me not to be so hard on him, and I guess I might am. But then again... if you like someone, or "love someone to bits", why would you want to push that person away? I just don't get it. I feel that sometimes people don't take me serious, and to get pissed off it the only way to make them see that I actually am serious do death. I'm not a meen and angry person, but if I have to bite I won't hesitate. And if you're smart enough to realize that if I waste my energy being angry with you, it's because I care for you. If I didn't like you I couldn't be bothered.


With that said. I'm now gonna spend the rest of my day being happy.

Another warning

I woke up early today, about 7.30, just like that. I'm about to go out into the misty woods for a run and some exercice by the gym. Later I'm meeting up with a friend before I go to work.

I have so much energy that needs to come out. Being angry yesterday, and not to mention, getting seriously heartbeating pissed off this morning, has given me motivation enough to run a marathon.

I just can't believe how people react sometimes. I'm not saying I'm the perfect example, but come on? I'm seriously thinking about the value of being on my own.

A run now will do me good, and this song will be screaming in my ears.

Up here I am who I am, and if you don't like it then fuck you man. I'm not a thief and a whore. Please don't follow me around next time I'm shopping in your store.
And up here I'm making you aware, that if you don't like me, well I don't care. I'll be exactly who I am. And if you got a problem with me, well that's your problem man.

vomit

Spending time with my friends tonight didn't really happen, even though I spent time with my friends. I was distracted and kind of offended.

I realize now that what I am about to write about is such things people think I shouldn't write about, but frankly I don't care. So if you're one of them, this is the warning.

So...
My boyfriend of two months sometimes decides that he wants to complicate things telling me I don't have to be with him just because it's easy. I don't know how many times I have to tell him that's not the case and that I'm with him because I genuinly like him. He doesn't believe me, and I'm about to just leave because basically he's calling me a liar.

And I'm sorry that my affections doesn't come out in words but in actions instead. But it pisses me off when people assume that they know something when they have no clue. Why I don't tell people that I love them is because that word to me is over used and has lost it's value. I say it sometimes, but even saying it to my parents is hard. And God knows how much I love them.

And what I don't get is how you want to be with someone whom you don't trust. I'm not a liar and I'm not a backstabbing person. I am honest and honesty hurts sometimes. And I'm sorry about that, but that's how I am. So either you chose to like me or you don't. I'm not gonna lick anyones feet to have people like me.

There's so many things I could go on about, but just to be clear... This is not all about my boyfriend, even though he kind of pulled the trigger for me.

Hallo rasist.

So SD made their way in and can now spread their rasist thoughts. Fuck that. It's horrible and shouldn't really be able to happen, but now that it did... I find it kind of exciting to see how the next 4 years will turn out to be. I wouldn't expect holocaust 2 to strike, but who knows what will happen if they climb up even more until next time to vote?

Feedback?

So as you may have noticed I changed my header. I don't really think Anger Management fits me and my personality. I do have my moody moments and all, but in general I am a very truly a happy girl.

And these pictures are taken from my five months trip I made earlier this year. And by looking at them I recall the happy free girl I was finding myself growing up and learn so much about live. That trip changed my life and made me a better person. And I loved the colours in that small town called Antigua in Guatemala.

What do you think?

election

After a lot of food, three big portions to be exact, I feel great again.
There will be no going out tonight, but I am going over to my friend to follow the i.e. Valvaka. I did my for the country earlier today by voting. Now I can go back to London again. But not quite yet. One more week.

And speeking of being home. I thought time would fly by, but it feels like I've been here a long time now, but it's only six days today.

Well, if I'm going over to my friend I should maybe look somewhat decent. Right now it's not okay, not even close.

:)

I just saw some numbers on my readers.. and apparantly I have one or two in South Korea reading this, so I just wanted to say HEY YOU!

Or perhaps not

The hang over is sneeking up on me from behind. It's not suvere what so ever, but my brain wont really function right now. I'm my mum, brother and I are going to vote today. What if I chose wrong now?

Right now I don't feel like partying, but we'll see what state I'm in later today.

just dance, it's gonna be okay.

Starting to get really tired. Think I'm going for a sleep in the bath tub. Then it's said my friend is gonna kill me at the gym today. I am so stiff after working out yesterday and dancing all night, so I'll how it goes!

I'm suppose to go out tonight again. My friend and I have been talking about going to this boat club for ages, so I'll suck it up and put my dancing shoes on again. Tonight is gay night too so that should be awesome!

I keep dancing on my own.

For a second I forgot that I went out last night.

I thought, wow I woke up quite late, but now it's only 9 am.
I started to move around and felt that my body was kind of weird.
Had craving for water, and when I finally jumped out of bed I realized that I was drinking last night and I have a hung over.

But wow we had fun dancing and dancing!

OMG

It feels so good after working out. The only con about working out in an out door gym in the woods is all the mosquitos biting you. Itch itch itch, but you gotta suck it up and realize that's the only prize you pay for a great work out. Now I'm gonna have a quick shower and then go shopping with my mum!

3 little birds

So three great things for today.

I have a brand new sweater my mum made me. I love it so much!
And I love you mum!

I have my grand parents pretty guitarr and it's hard case. I love it!
Now I need someone who can tune it.

I'm going out to the out door gym for train some. I love it!
The hardest part is getting out of the door, but here I am kicking myself out.

hey

LIFE IS THE SAME REGARDLESS IF YOU RUN THROUGH IT CRYING OR SMILING, SO WHY DON’T YOU JUST PUT ON A SMILE ON THAT LOVELY FACE AND GO OUT THERE AND LIVE YOUR LIFE AS YOU WANT IT TO BE. THERE’S NOTHING BUT YOURSELF THAT KEEPS YOU FROM CREATING LIFE AS YOU WANT IT. LIFE IS HARD, NOWHERE NEAR EASY. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. LIFE IS YOURS. THERE WILL BE UPS AND THERE WILL BE DOWNS, JUST DON’T GIVE IN TO WHAT YOUR HEART DESIRE. AND DON’T FORGET TO LOVE. LOVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, BUT MOST IMPORTANT, LOVE YOURSELF. BE SPONTANIOUS AND TAKE THE LEAP. JUST GO FOR IT. YOU SHOULD NEVER REGRET THE THINGS YOU DID, BUT THE THINGS YOU DIDN’T DO. EXPLORE, FEEL, BREATH, CRY, LAUGH, GET ANGRY TOO. LET FEELINGS FLOW THEN LET THEM GO. HAVE FUN, YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE.

So about working with old people

It is really something working with people, or in my case, old people.

Today I worked dubble shifts so I got to see many of them. I want to talk about my day at work and a bit about the people I go home to.

For example I was buying food and cleaning a lady with the diagnose Borderline. So yeah, she's a bit mental, but I found her really kind and fun to talk to. She lived in a mess but after an hour and a half it was some what better.

Around 18.00 tonight I went to a man who is demented. He can't really remember me anymore but I tried my best to get on the good side with him again cooking and chatting while he was eating. The other girls always I work with leaves him after cooking, but I usually stay and do the dishes after. I never got that far today. The zombie like horn dog raised his voice and said;

"I think you're damn sexy".
"Hehe" I said. "So does my boyfriend" trying to joke about it.

But then he stood up and pulled down his zipers and flashed his dick, while asking me if I think he's nasty and rude. I excused myself and walked away while vomiting a bit in my mouth.


So yeah, old people are like a box of chocolate... you never know what you'll get.

Realization

There are a few things that occured to me today.

First of all, my work here in Sweden is awesome and fucked up at the same time. More about that later.

Second, I was listening to one of my very favourite songs at the moment (constantly repeating on my iPod) and the lyrics goes like this. "Don't wait, act now, this amazing offer won't last long..." and yes, it occured to me that I am awesome doing what I do right now. Chasing my dreams.

Third. While getting into details about five month trip with my co-worker, I realized; "wow I really have done a lot and I'm only 21 years old." I am greatful for having the curage, or for just being enough naive to dare.

Four, I don't have that strong character as I would like to think. I was so pround saying no to a cinamon bread from an old lady, I even braged about it to my training friend. Half hour later I had eaten some really heavy shit my co-worker could not accept a no for an answer. So tomorrow and Sunday there will be some serious exercises.

killing me softly

Good morning. I am tired, but I'll be fine after breakfast.

So I realized that I'm off work in about 17 hours from now. It's gonna be a long day, but after today it's only going to be easier. Going up now!

that's what I thought.

I took water over my head thinking I would be able to run after going to bed. I know I kind of broke my promise after two days already. I wont take it too hard though, I need to sleep to be able to work 15 hours tomorrow.

fish food

The wok never happend, fish did.

I'm taking my brother out in the cold dark Sweden. He's gonna have a bath to "warm up" before. Well, I'm going to bed to watch some series, I hope I can make it up efter that.

back to work

My oldies got so happy when they saw me today, and my co-worker too, and even my boss. Then my friend got happy too when we met up for a walk after work.

Now I'm a bit tired and am about to start cooking for the family. Stir fried veggies with noddles, or wok as I say. I'll skip the chicken since it's in the freezer still.

Later, a run. A promise is a promise.

We could watch it fly and just keep looking up

I just spent like an hour and a half watching the entire concert that Paramore did in Chicago. Of that I am speechless but now I have about two things to say.

1. Man I wish I had those tickets to their concert in London in November.

and

2. I am so going to make my way up there one day!

Now it's time to sleep. Tomorrow I'm re-united with my old ones, I'm going out runing and training my voice. I feel focused!

statistic

So I just saw that I can now see how many side views I have per day. I expected it not to be much, who am I? Unknown to many. Not for too long though. But as I said to my dad yesterday; I don't really care who's reading or not, it's more like an officiall diary that I keep. I write exactly what I want and if you don't like what you read it not my fault you want to read what I write. But then again it makes me happy to see that people actually do read the shit I write.

So FYI, today is 25 side views so far.
RockZtar!

planets

The afternoon turned out to be really nice. But it's still cold. Or I would like to say REALLY cold.

I still haven't got my ass into training gear, but a promise to myself if the last thing I want to break. I think I might even have my baby brother by my side today.

Later my dear old "nutritionist" is coming over, and I hope that he will give me some pep-talk about training and eating. Every now and then I have a talk to him so that I don't completely loose it.

So I guess training gear is about to come on.
Laters!

CSN

Okay, I haven't sorted out anything in my room, but I still have been very productive sending in my application for CSN aid. No loans, just aid. Now I just have to wait and see and hopefully then accept my shitty "scanning" of my acceptance letters and that..

One hour then it't party time!

the BIG day

Oh and I forgot to say..

Happy birthday Great Grandmum!

I know she will never ever read this, and that if she would, she would never understand a word. But still, she's turning 100 years old today and in a couple of hours we're going over there to celebrate her.

Detox

It sure is relaxing going out to my dad's place every now and then. We had my second mum's delicious food and then some time in the sauna. I treated my hair with some good schampoo and conditioner and today my hair and my skin is amazing. I feel great.

I am going to have a run today, but the weather still sucks since I came 21 hours ago. Rain rain rain. It's suppose to get better this afternoon, so I will take my changes and wait to go out. I think now could be the perfect time to clean my room and throw away unessesary things.

The one that seeks shall find

I've been doing pretty much nothing during my 4 hours here in Sweden. Called a few friends, watched some series on the computer, enjoyed Swedish "food" i.e. knäckebröd, vanilla yoghurt with oats and liqourice, lots of sweet sweet SALT liqourice. And now I'm over it. Seriously.

Tomorrow I'll start running again. I will give myself one break on friday since I'm that working 7.30-23. But other then that, I'm gonna aim for every day!

Now I'm just waiting for my dad to pick me up.


Oh, and I walked into my room and looked behind my mirror and guess what I found! 550 SEK, which is about 50 pounds or 65 dollars. That means that I'm fine now when I'm home since the only thing I'm goina to spend my money on is my mess to hair.

They know nothing about of us

Home in 12 hours. Feels weird but good.

Work was easy today, but there's one who reallt buggs me and I get pissed off, especially during this week. But now I'm off for two weeks, even though I'm gonna work a lot when I get home.

I moved out today too. Kind of sad, but I'll still hang out with them. Too bad that we realized that we're all musically interested, with one who playes the trumpet, one who plays the guitarr and me who am singing. We did a couple of songs and then I had to go. I'll definately gonna ask my grandparents for their guitarr. I really want to play and sing acoustic things right now.

Going up in about 5-6 hours, don't really know when I have to leave to get to Gatwick in time, but I'll figure it out now. Sweden, see you tomorrow.

Sunday bloody Sunday.

Todays date was really enjoyable. We walk from Hyde Park to Covent Garden, via Buckingham Palace and Westminister Abbey. It sure was a beautiful day. I even enjoyed some beer because it was such a great day. And some street musician stole about one hour of our attention. Good shit.

Never hooked up with Wonder Woman, but I'm sure I'll see her when I go to Sweden. Ended up eating dinner at Nandos instead. I don't mind since it's really good. Then we went home to do "some laundry", which was also true, before we went to the cinema. Saw Tamara Drewé, which I kind of liked it.

Then we went home to "listen through" Jonny Walker's (street musician) cover CD from 2007. That was a 72 minutes long session.

Time to get some powers for tomorrow. Said yes to work and really have to move out since I'm coming home on Tuesday. Have a very good night.

long story short

I went to a party tonight. It was kind of refreshing.
Now I'm tired.
Tomorrow I have a date with my bf.
Might hook up with Wonder Woman too..

Bye . .

music and lyrics

Quite busy day at work, and even though I started at 12 today I came a bit late. And I never went to the bank either.

But then I bought a new pair of shoes and a hat.

Now I'm waiting for the boy to come home, which probably will be in one hour. I'm cooking tonight, nothing special. And hopefully we force us out for a run. I don't know what I feel about that, but how long can you escape the fact that your ass wobbles a bit more than usual?

Music and Lyrics is on TV now.

the future is just around the corner

I forgot to tell you yesterday.

I PASSED AND I'M IN FOR THE NEXT YEAR!

While this is not a supricing thing I'm just very happy that it all finally will start. This was the warm up and now it's the real shit that lies ahead, no backing out now. I am so happy and excited!

what a suprice...

After 15 minutes he still hasn't come into his room. I think I'll go to bed instead. Oh right, I'm already there..

More suprices

Another suprice, even for me, is that apparently I'm not going home on Monday, but on Tuesday instead. Oh well, what to do... Thanks mum for noticing!

hihi

I'm in my bf's bed waiting for him to get home. He doesn't know I'm coming tonight since I told him I was going to my place. I'm such a naughty girl. But I hope he get's glad.

Here he comes...

I think you lost your mind

Imagine this. I just realized that I really like my teacher I disliked so much to start with. He's great and I can even consider having him as my vocal teacher when school starts. Too bad he's not alowed to teach technique, since he teaches in a different way. But I like that way and it works for what kind of music I want to do. Well we'll see. And on top of all that he told me I've improved a lot since we started 8 weeks ago. So you all can imagine my feeling now.

If not it's happiness!

Oh, and I'm having broccoli with my lasange.

keep the stars close over your head

Morning.
I can see that I drooled last night... it's all over my left hand.
I had my morning cereal here in bed and I haven't moved much.
Going to school in about 30 minutes, so I can stay pretty much 20 more minutes. Sweet.

I guess I also have to start packing my bags and take my things over to my bf's house since I'm leaving for Sweden in less then one week. I'm really gonna miss my flat mates but I promised to come by at least once every week.. I mean, I still go to school around here.

And I'm inspired of an artist. Terra Naomi. She got famous for uploading her songs on Youtube years ago. She's such an amazing singer and songwriter. And yes, I am inspried and I will never give up. It will take me some time, but it's all worth it.

possible

Life is great, but now I'm tired. Even rain falling on my face when I crossed London Bridge to get home after work felt great.

I was suppose to study this evening, but I've had a pleasant time hanging out with my flat mates. And now I've been falling in and out of sleep to wait until my bf would call. Then he did, and now I can sleep. God damn I'm tired.

pjuh

And after tasty pasta with my favourite Heinz and 3 Mentos rolls, I'm now gonna have a well needed shower. The Man should be home in about 30 minutes and I bought us something to play with....

happy day, angry day, hungry day

I don't really know what to say about today....

I was a happy girl going to work, but one of the guys above me was a complete ass hole and made me so angry that I started to cry. Nice. And then he pisses my co-worker off too. I've now decided that I don't really like that guy. So I guess I joined the club with the rest of the staff.

Then my boyfriend had the keys to home, his keys of course, but since I was going to stay here tonight again, it didn't make me feel better when he told me he was going to be home after ten tonight.

So I've been walking up and down Oxford Street spending money. Not the smoothest move, but it made me feel good.

Now I'm going back to the days when I only ate pasta and ketchup. This will be my first meal of today, and it's almost 10 pm. Not good, not good at all.

Fri

I am tired. Not much sleep tonight, but that's how it is when you have funnier things to do. And I should not complain. My boyfriend left home about one hour ago...

Today is just a work day. And maybe later we'll catch a movie.

exam day one

So my exam today was a funny little thing which I partly really screwed up. But I don't really take it as a big of a deal.

Because one: It's only like 10 % of my total score of all my test I'm going to have.
And two: I just started with this, and after not even two months of practice I don't think many people without perfect pitch can pull sightsinging off. I jsut need to continue practising and I'll be fine in the future.


But my rythm part went pretty good, I only struggled with one bar out of four. And that's not bad at all.


Now I'm going back to school to have my P&I. I really like this song and I really think that I can pull it off quite good now. Imagine in one week when I have my FINAL P&I... Rock and Roll!

fitta

And now I had a friend to my former friend calling me a cunt over facebook.
Buhu she hurt my feelings.

Seriously after eight months?!

that's my day

Thing almost never end up how you think they will..

The rest of my day I did following:

- Learned how to play "We eish you a Merry Christmas" on the piano.
- Not much sightinging, or non to be honest.
- Had a lot of sweets.
- Cooked a really good dinner for my flat mates, and as always for an army.
- Sat in the living room chatting until 10 something pm.
- Now I'm on my computer doing some eartraining.

So conclusion is...

No sightsinging, no rythm practice and that's what's my exam is about tomorrow. Weeee! But i had a great evening!

theory is fun

Theory really felt goot today at school. So that's a real mood boost I must say. And the fact that it's such a beautiful day doesn't really make it worse. It's almost too bad I have to go back to school to study. But how about that, I'm exited about studying. I might go for a walk later and perhaps even go to the blues bar tonight. We'll, but I need to nail my sightsinging and rythm.

Oh, and I think I might look for another school, so I have more things to do. So as always there's no time for resting.