vomit

Spending time with my friends tonight didn't really happen, even though I spent time with my friends. I was distracted and kind of offended.

I realize now that what I am about to write about is such things people think I shouldn't write about, but frankly I don't care. So if you're one of them, this is the warning.

So...
My boyfriend of two months sometimes decides that he wants to complicate things telling me I don't have to be with him just because it's easy. I don't know how many times I have to tell him that's not the case and that I'm with him because I genuinly like him. He doesn't believe me, and I'm about to just leave because basically he's calling me a liar.

And I'm sorry that my affections doesn't come out in words but in actions instead. But it pisses me off when people assume that they know something when they have no clue. Why I don't tell people that I love them is because that word to me is over used and has lost it's value. I say it sometimes, but even saying it to my parents is hard. And God knows how much I love them.

And what I don't get is how you want to be with someone whom you don't trust. I'm not a liar and I'm not a backstabbing person. I am honest and honesty hurts sometimes. And I'm sorry about that, but that's how I am. So either you chose to like me or you don't. I'm not gonna lick anyones feet to have people like me.

There's so many things I could go on about, but just to be clear... This is not all about my boyfriend, even though he kind of pulled the trigger for me.