yeah yeah

Wow, I feel that I'm becoming this bitter person if I'm gonna continue writing angry stuff here. The thing is, I couldn't bother much less about these people ignoring me. It's sad that things have become as they are. But seriously, if people that close to me can't take the truth or are threatened by the fact that I'm not scared of giving them a hard time if there's something on my mind, why should I bother? This is not a perfect Barbie world we're all living in. It's just you, me and the fact that we're all different.

Then the thing is... I do bother. I do care. I don't know how many times my friend who stopped talking to me in January hasn't picked up the phone, or how many times my cousin ignores me in every way possible. These are the people I thought so high of, that I would kill for. And after all this time, I still think "maybe next time she'll pick up the phone", even though that most likely won't happen.

And the thing that makes me furious is not the fact that they don't want to talk to me, it's because they don't even get me a chance to know the reason. And even if I did something wrong and owe an appology, at the end of the day, I never get the chance to give it. So I'm asking myself, why sould I bother? Is it worth it? Things obviously don't last forever.


With this said, a run will do me good.
Ciao.