Chaos and peace

I have come to realise a lot lately. 

I can't control everything happening around me, but I can learn how to look at it and control myself and my thoughts. At this time in my life, my patience is being tested. Is it easy to deal with? Not at all. But as much as I feel like I am standing still due to someone else's inability to decide, I feel that I am growing as a person. 

Any difficult time in ones life is a test and a chance to grow.
You can let it beat you down, supress it and be resentful. 
Or you can embrace all the emotions and opportunity that it brings. 

I am a very impatient person, I want things my way and I want them now.
A good and a not so good trade to have. But I can feel that I am learning how to control my patience, slowly but steady. Which I am grateful for. There are more ways to get what you want than to persist and push until something moves. 

While I can't put my love onto who I want right now, I am chosing to put it all on myself.
Physically, but more importantly mentally.