come tomorrow

I'm having a hard day and tears are on the edge of bursting out all the time. The thing is… I feel weak, that I can't do this. But thinking of myself as a quiter is just not something I can do. It just feels like I'm starting over again, or so it seems.

I'm moving out in two weeks and I need to find somewhere else to live.

I can't get my bank account at the moment and my boss is constantly on me about it. And now I'm having Monday of next week so that I can "make some effort" and actually get one. Like I've not been trying...

And they expect me to be as good waitress as the guys who has been doing this for over 15 years. I'm not bad, I'm just not as good as they are, and I think they forget the fact that I've never been a waitress before.


So yeah, its one of those days.
I feel that I really want to go home, but for what? I'm lonely and frustrated. I litteraly have like one person I can rely on here, which I am very thankful for. I think I couldn't make it without him.

As I said, just one of those days.