there may be many other night like this

I'm seriously getting a bit bored of this. But I have taken a quite big break now, so I should work for another hour, THEN have a shower and go to bed and work some more. Then finish the day with an episode of some shitty series.

Take my mind and carry it far away

I feel a bit lighter now. Even though I still don't have much done I feel that at least I'm on the right track this time.

So right now I'm taking a small break from it, and then I'll go back to it after a nice shower and with clean hair and fresh pj's on!

K.I.S.S "Keep it simple, stupid."

So here I am, again. Just before starting my endless work on my arrangement.

Today really wasn't my day at all, and on top if that I really really broke my headphones, so now I have to live without. Or just go and buy a new pair. I need them for studying and practicing, and Christmas is too far away.

I feel a tiny bit better now though. Today I wanted to cry all day long and I couldn't sing properly. Oh well, I'm gonna have a nap before biting the sour apple!

Creation in the small hours

So the time is twenty past one and I am still doing my composition. It's going so so sooooo slow and I just can't believe it. But, I'm feeling a bit more positive. Tomorrow I'm bringing my computer with me wherever I'll go and that's it.

The thing is that I'm not tired at all now. But I guess as soon as I will lay my head on the pillow I will pass out. I'm just thinking about styain up until I can't hold my eyes open, or if I should go back to this tomorrow with a bright point of view.

I know for a fact that I am starting my next composition so much earlier!

Crazy, I just can't sleep.

After having my one to one lesson today, and after talking to the amazing pianist in my band I feel that there might be some kind of hope for my composition. I'm gonna stick to the one I started last and just keep it really simple. The thing is that I want sweets and I can't be asked to go out to get some.

Just next to me is my bf's chocolate calader for December, and I am so tempted to open it that it's shameless. I won't do it of course, but the thought of it drives me crazy. Seriously crazy.

Last try

I am starting over again. If I can't make this one work then I have no idea, but then I know I have to finish one the the 4 tunes I have started already. But now I'm not gonna rush it, and I'm gonna keep it very simple. Ready, set, go!

Go to sleep is something I can forget about right now.

Is there anyone our there?

Today went so fast. Can't believe it.
Now I have to really try to do my composotion. I find it really really hard, but I know I'm not alone in the dark. We have until the 7th to finish this, which gives us more or less one week. OMG! AAAH!

ba ba ba ba baaa

I have too many questions about Sibelius that I need to figure out right now.
Then I need to come up with an introducion and I think I'd like some kind of bridge in there. Need more time, and I can't focus without knowing how to use the program properly. Damnit!

study study

I'm starting my studying a bit later than I wanted, but I had a nice morning with my bf, so it was totally worth it.

I just logged off FB and now I have two hours of studying to go. I'm thinking... 45 minutes technique, 15 minutes eartraining and hours hour arranging.

Time to log our from here as well!

Thank you, should I stay or should I go?

Thanksgiving dinner was amazing.. So much food and very nice people. I'm glad to be home not too late though and I'm painting my nails for the first time in some time, fun.

Ah, yeah, and tomorrow I'm going up to continue my composition arrangement, and to read some more about the music business since we have a test tomorrow afternoon. I've read it a few times, but since the english is quite complicated I feel that one more time can't do me no harm.

Things I have to think about is wether I'm gonna stay in Sweden for New Years and earn some more money or if I should come back in the days between Christmas and the new year just to get some studying done. Well, that's the big question for the year. Oppinions anyone?

FIRST OF ADVENT

So it's about four weeks left until Christmas. Today I put of some decoration. Now I just need to get the lights on.

Goin to a Thanksgiving dinner now, so I talk to you later!

I'm out!

I gave my resignation today. It's gonna be so weird not working at Bond&Brook. I have seriously been there the whole time I've lived here in London, and in a couple of weeks that's gonna change.

I have been thinking and also deciding that I am not gonna work for about two months after Christmas. Then I can really focus on my studies and have nothing to blame on if I don't do anything.

And today, I was sooooo busy at work. I broke the record with turning over 287 pounds. It may not sound like much, but if you consider that one coffee is 2.75 pounds... then I made 104 coffees today in a few hours. 104 perfect coffees!

Anyways, I'm just chilling tonight. Tomorrow I'm gonna study, train and go to a Thanksgiving dinner!

NERDS

Meeting my friend was fun. I think we spent about 3 hours talking about theory, but it was never boring. Very very inspiring too, so I know some of the things I'm gonna get spinning in my daily schedule from now on!

change

I think I got stuck for a moment. So I'll come back to it tonight! Now I'm gonna clean, go and hand in my shoes and post some letter before heading to the other side of London to meet up with the ploughman!

What a feeling

Today I had a bit of a sleep in just because I'm not usually off on Fridays. NICE!
Then I finished watching Mulan and hung out a bit with the bf before he left for training and work.

And now. BOOM, I've finished about half of my arrangement in about one hour. Okay, maybe one third of it, but seriously... after spent countless of hours on two other songs, this feels amazing. I'm actually gonna take a break from it before I feel like I'm getting stuck again. Plus, the Sibelius sound is starting to annoy me too much.

I feel great!

You make me feel

I just took a nice long bath. I haven't had one in a while. Baths are so underrated in my oppinion.

I also needed to wash my hair! Now my bf came home and I happened to promise a short massage before finish watching Mulan!

I just can't hide it.

Good morning. Started to watch Mulan yesterday. Only managed about 18 minutes before I had to drop the computer on the floor. But man, such a great film. I love Disney so much!

Now I'm getting ready for school.

Life is a bit exciting for some reason. Or maybe I'm just looking at in a different way.

You took me riding in a rocket, you gave me a star

Me and my bf went to the 3rd years jazz gig tonight. I thought it was good fun. Great bands and all! And for once I went away from the rule and did not stay home trying to study. So I feel good. BUT, tomorrow I have to try realt hard to get some shit done before 14.00 when I have my composition class. I wanna bring in my work and get some feedback... but then I kind of need some work done for it too.

Anyways, I'm having a good time in life. Hope you all have it too!

So, seriously... not much got done.. Jazz doesn't inspire me, neighter does Sibelius, not do horn.

I'm packing up for the day.

push it

If I don't feel seriousy pain in my legs tomorrow I will be very disappointed. I pushed hard today and I loved it.

Now it's time to get going with my composition asignment.

tell me something good

Started the day with watching Tarzan with the bf. He has hardly seem any Disney films in his life and I'm so sad to hear that, but so glad to know that I am the person to change his lost childhood films. Seriously, I can't evern imagine growing up without Disney, or Astrid Lindgren too!

Next film up is Hercules, but now I'm heading to the gym, and then continuing my studying. Today I am gonna do something good. I just kind of started over with a new song.

work it

Good evening.

Work was cool today. We were okay busy, but everything just ran along so smoothly you could hardly feel it, and then I was the bar man, wich normally is pretty stressful.

After talking to my co-worker who goes on his bike 12 miles every day to get to work, and 12 miles to get back, and then runs 3 miles to the gym, work out and then runs 3 miles back home again - I decided that I was gonna take the tube to the gym, even though my feet and my knees were hurting a bit. And so I did I now it feels great.

Since I've been back from Sweden, less than a week ago, I have eaten about 500 g sweets and 350 grams of chocolate. Wanting to go to the gym or not... I kind of have to! But then again, it's great that I love working out.

oh happy days

So today I've spent countless hours trying to get school right. No success I would dare to say. I just feel like I'm stuck in a bubble. You see, I just want to sing. Not arrange jazz standards. I rather arrange something fun. I know I'm complaining a bit too much right now, but sometimes I just don't feel like enough.

Deadlines are coming closer and I'm getting nowhere.
Great.

F'ING FB

So once again did FB take one hour of my life... Wow, I should, or everyone on Fb should, maybe consider what it does to you. With this I'm saying good night!

go go go gooooo go go go

I just got home from school. I'm so happy for having experiences the workshop that was held tonight. I feel like I have so much more insight and belief in the voice and it's abilaties! It was so inspiring, wooooow!

On the other hand I'm a bit dissappointed about my productivity today. There was none. I had four hours when I had planed to spend two hours arranging a song for composition, and two hours sweating at the gym. I was chilling like a chilled out person. Which I kind of guess is important too. The social game.

Anyways, I'm gonna try to do some of my arrangement tonight until like 11 pm, then I'm straight to bed preparing for an even more productive day tomorrow.

find me find me find me

I have forgotten to write to you.

Not much as happened really.
I had my first private vocal class yesterday and I am so so so happy. I think this can be good at the end.

I'm realy dissappointed because the BV's in my song say they are refusing to go on stage and perform Somebody to Love. I've worked so hard on it and now I kind of just have to settle with another song. I don't wanna be a baby about it in school, but here I can complain as much as I want! Period!

Then I've started to go to the gym, you know properly, with a schedule and stuff, so this will be good. I'm so stiff and I just had to sleep another hour and a half today because it was just too hard to get up. So I will go today after school.

There is a seminar with like a vocal teaching guru coming to the school tonight, I'm so excited for that!

Well, I have to do some dishing before I leave for school.


LATERS!

Dear Vodka

Just to sum up the wedding I attended in Sweden during the weekend

I had to get super drunk, super fast and maintain drunk for different reasons.

1. It was super cold and I just knew that Vodka was the answer to stop trying to get warm and ju get numb instead.
2. I was surrounded by my family, and I knew that Vodka was the answer to get by.
3. There was a lot of people from Lithuania there, and I know Vodka was the drink of choise, and did I say I was surrounded by family and it was fucking freezing?
   

Anyways, I had a lot of fun! I even had my lip bleeding from getting into a minor cat fight over the brides flowers. Totally worth it, because I won over a woman smaller than myself.

I have spent all my years to believe in you

http://dl.dropbox.com/u/14883992/Monitor%20Mix%20-%20Somebody%20To%20Love-NORM_03.mp3

I just got home from Sweden. With loads of food and sweets and vitamins and my grandmums cinnamon buns!

And then when I got home I saw this link, and it's from the recording we did this week. And even though they didn't put down to much time picking the better parts I am so happy with the result, and that we got all of the harmonies down. So tell me, what do you think?

People.

Yet another day in studio and today we're doing such a hard song, but I'm so excited! And now I'm checked in for my flight to Sweden.

I won't bring my computer this weeked, so you'll here more about it on Sunday!

Have a great weekend everyone.

I think I like it, oh yeah

So being in the studio is a lot of hanging around and not doing much. And when it's your turn to do the simplest of things, it may take 10 takes to get it right. I am so excited to working on Somebody to Love!

And I have some pressure on me tomorrow to get things right as fast as possible since I have a flight to Sweden to catch! Wo wo I'm so excited, and I just can't hide.

test one two

Good morning world. I still have a small cold and sleeping at night seems to hard.

It is time to get ready and head to the studio, I can't even explain how excited I am. It's gonna be such a long day and I hope, to be honest, that I will manage to get some studying done. I have a list of all of our deadlines, and right now it's not getting any shorted, but the time to get it done is.


Have a great day.

Oh, and fall is SO here now.

pick your run

Last night I didn't sleep much at all, but I feel very well rested. I'm opening up the restaurant today, and I love that hour when I'm there alone!

jorå

So mf bf fell asleep on the tube and came home rather late. I was fins with not going since I'm feeling ike taking care of my health before going into the studio on Wednesday.

Now we're going to IKEA, and I'm so excited!

Just one of those great days with no reason.

So there are not many things that I actually like about London, but every now and then you just have to love this city.

This morning, at 8.30 I was on a bus on my way to work. No trafic since it's Saturday, but all of a sudden everything stopped and I jumped off the bus to walk to the nearest tube.

Then I realized that it was this parade going on. For me a very random parade, and 8.30 in the morning. And then there was a lot of people with colorful balloons. That made my day so much happier already.

Today we're celebrating a crazy person who tried to blow up the Houses of Parliament. Anyone who has seen V for Vendetta know that I'm talking about Guy Fawks. Cool guy!

There's fireworks going on, PLUS we got two bottles of Champange EACH today, since we broke the record for October this year. Never say no, but I might save it. The aircondition at work has given me a cold, and I feel more like drinking tea to be honest.

Find me somebody to love!

Today was good, even though I ended up chatting with Elin instead of practicing. Not good!

Now I've spent like one hour writing out lyrics and backing vocals in the right place. I know I probably could have found it on the internet, but I figured I learned more by doing it myself.

I should stay home and study some more, but now I'm going to the movies to watch In Time. Should be good. I'll let you know!

I'm ready to roll

Today was a good day too.

Only a few hours in school and then I went home cooking and practicing dance for the wedding next week. I think it was a bad order when I decided to eat pasta before dancing. After 15 min I felt sick and had to lay down. No more dancing. I still feel sick, like one hour after.

So now I'm making myself ready for some friends gig tonight at Babrican. That should be fun! :)

wednesday 2nd

Today was a long day. I only had two classes but I stayed in school another 3,5 hours to get started at some of he projects we have. So I did, a tiny step in right direction. It feels great!

Then I went to the gym, but since I pushed myself hard yesterday and I haven't been going to a gym in a while, I'm so stiff in my legs. I miss my after-yoga-feeling already. Anyways, I did mostly abs today. I found out that our bass player also goes to that gym.

Now I'm home, I'm a bit tired, and since I did such a good job in school, I don't feel bad about not doing any studying tonight.