maybe not

Just came home from my gran. It was really nice to see that she's hanging in there, but it still pains me to see here being so strong. I wanted to cry every ten minutes, but I didn't want to do it. Maybe I'll shread some tears when I go to bed or maybe I won't. I'm today it came back to me, I'm sad.

I know it's gonna be like this for some time, so what can you do...