Something on my mind

So, sometimes I think I'm just thinking about myself. But I think that's because I am always thinking about everybody else first, if that makes sence.

As for today. I booked a room for two hours to have for practicing everything in the world I need to practise. Two hours, because I can't really practice at home. I can study other things, but not practice.

And then I get a message from Elin saying she booked a room for the singers to that we can practice our harmonies for the gig coming up. And God knows we need it. It happens to be on the same hours that I already planned to to my things.

So again, I am the only one that has always showed up for rehearsal and pratices. I am the one always booking everything in advance. And the time I think about myself there's something coming up that will be affected if I don't show up. But then I think, why should I always be the one showing up if usually there's someone else not coming because of the lamest excuses?

It makes me angry that I know I will, once again, sacrifise my time, that also is important, to go and do something else because we will never function as a group if we don't practise together. But I think it's reallt unfair.

So I can tell you one thing. If people are not showing up at 1 pm. as said. I'm not gonna be bothered actually. That's the least I could expect, right?