Total eclipse

Yesterday was a hard day. And when it came to an end, I had a small breakdown. It's really not easy being here right now when I don't have a clue about much. I think what's bothering me the most right now is that I don't know what my pay check will look like and I still have a lot of things to do. That means I have no idea of what I have to move around with. I'm fine for now, but it's stressful to have that in the back of my head.

And I really miss home. Yesterday I figured out that I will have about a month between school and school again, and I might end up going home for a couple of weeks in September if I can get time off from work. I have only been home for six weeks this year, and we're in August now.

I don't know, things will be brighter soon, but I feel alone, really alone. So no, it's not easy to be here when home is so close. I want you to know that I miss you all back home a lot. I can't come back yet though. I need to settle here first. So I hope in September things will feel better and brighter.

Love always.