Aint no love in the heart of the city

I've been wrking from 8.30 to 18.40 today. I was suppose to be done at 17.00. I am a bit tired, but I really want to go out and dance tonight. Really really. I'm going over to my friends tonight, and since we all are working tomorrow, I don't know how it's going to be, but as I said, I really want to dance!

Now I need a shower, new clothes on me and in my bag and I need to do my voice exercises too. I should do them every day, but I'm not, not even twice a week so far. A change needs to be done.

Tcha tcha

Waking up

Speaking of losing things...

Not only am I losing my good looking tan. I've also lost about 3 kilos since I got to London 2,5 weeks ago. How do I do it you may ask...
I'll tell you my secret...

Being happy and poor

But most important of all...

a lot of sex.

I even think my metabolism has increased a lot, because I am hungry all the time too. Or wait, that could be because I'm poor... hm.

And not to make you all think I'm a slut going to the bar to find someone to exercise with, it's with one guy, and one guy only.

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I'm losing it.

About two months ago:


Yesterday:


As you guys can see I am losing my tan.
But I have white teeth, which it nice.
That's all I have to say.

My current room and I

good morning

First I woke up at 6 am this morning, but I manage to fall back to sleep and now it's 8.20 am. Looking out the window and it's a great day, so my plan is to go out and but breakfast then maybe find somewhere to just sit down and just be for a second. Then it's school, and since I live so close now, I can get there and practise before class.

up

After having food I feel a bit better. But I still think maybe I have to move. I'm not going to rush this desition now, but you know when you have that feeling.

I've done absolutely nothing worth mention tonight, really. I should study. But I'm going to take a shower and then jump into my new bed. I feels strange.

Oh and I just realized I left my tooth brush behind.
Way to go Emily.

facedrop

Suddenly I feel unhappy. And the past two hours I've been looking on ads for other options. I really feel like an ass doing that since I just got here. But I found way bigger places for like 100 punds less a month and with good transportation too.

I have no idea what to do. But I am going to sleep on it, and let this week pass and then see!

Emily the Londoner

Many things has happened since only the last post I gave you.

Yesterday I worked my first day at my new job. To just tell you parts of it I manage to break three tea cups and give out bread to the wrong table. I thought my boss hated me and at some points I really wanted to cry. But hey, I'm a waitress now and shit happens.

And speaking of shit... I'm sitting in the comun room in my new home. Look at me, getting my shit together. It's lovely, small and kind of expensive. And I really got used to living with the other guys, so this has to grow on me for sure.

The only thing I'm missing is a place to work out, then I'm pretty much settled here in London. Kudos Emily!

trapped

I've been watching Britain's Next Top Model for two hours now, and I thought maybe now is the time to go out for a run. But next episode is the make over one, and we can't miss that can we?

happy girl

I had my work trial yesterday, and I'll start working on Monday; the same day I move into my own room in London Bridge. It feels awesome.

Today I am lazy and I'm just watching TV. But I did make a promise tomyself that I will go and run around Hyde Park, the whole thing! Hopefully my friend Olivia from school is joining in, but the weather is not the funniest today. So even I would rather stay in and drink tea.

God I am Happy!

pretty little thing

Another weekend off duty. I am going going to have a trial for a job on Monday. I still think I have to search for another job to, since this one is closed on Sundays. But it's good for now.

Tonight I'm going over to a friends house. A girl from my class is having a small "party" so that we can get to know eachother better. I think we are such a great group already! There's no holding back in front of eachother and if you are doind wrong no one is judging you. Fun as fuck if I can say so.

Today I am so going to the post office, I've been postponing it for too long. And I need to buy a pair of black pants and a pair of flat black shoes too.

musik är bajset

I feel that school is really giving me something. It feels great and I can't wait until tomorrow. Thursdays are definately the best days, mixing both theory, voice training and preformances.

GOT TO GET YOU INTO MY LIFE!

Now it's time for some studying.
How exciting. Yes, seriously!

internet's back

I've been without internet but now it's back.

So I just wanted to say that I think things are looking up for real now.

I have a room I'm going to rent, for now at least.. it's quite expensive but tomorrow I have a meeting for a job, so we'll see where that's going!

First day second week at school was fun too, but I choosed way wrong clothes for today. I was almost dying in my jeans. This week we are singing Got to get you into my life with The Beatles. Now one of their best songs, but it's sure growing on me.

Oh I haven't told you either. I don't drink anymore, at all, what so ever. I just figured that I would stop after the finals in WC. So yeah, I just did. Now it's cranberry juice the boys are buying me at the pub.

Time for some sleep.

maryland

Today was a great day. I am happy. That's why I'm in bed eating cookies.

Tonight I'm going to sleep in my friends bed, since he's not at home and his flat mate has his ex girl friend over for the night... So I think I lock myself in here for the night. Eating cookies and using ear-plugs.

Camden

My feet are soar, my muscles hard and my mind is at ease, for now. I feel great again. I really hate not having a "normal" life. By normal I mean, having a home, and making money somehow.

Talking about money. I'm going to Camden Market after taking a shower. Sunday is the big Camden day, but I will not spend a penny on clothes or other fun things you can buy for money. I will just look at things and enjoy being surrounded by people.

Beautiful Sunday

It's a beautiful Sunday here in London. I know there are some markets I could go to, but there's no money I'm going to spend. But I thought I might just go out for a walk. I need some exercise before my head is falling off.

So it's me, my iPod and my walking sticks today.

Stars

You know what. My Gradfather died November 2nd last year and I think about it every now and then. I didn't really know him that well... but he had a greater impact on me than I thought. I came over an old e-mail he sent me last year when I was hearbroken and lost and I am really greatful for having that, what no one knew then, last dinner together.

Whenever I can I think of people, and I guess even more when I'm not surrounded by them, and even more then that when life is a struggle.

I lost my point while getting ready for bed. I guess I just wanted to say
- Hello Grandfather I think of you.

Good girls like bad guys...?

I'm a good girl going to school on my day off.
How about that?!

job hunting 1

So I've been out handing out CVs to different restaurants. My second mum's brother was driving me around on his motor cycle, so I got a London sightseeing too. London really is beautiful!

I have no idea how it went today, so I'm going to give it another try again tomorrow.

Later tonight I'm goig to look at place number three of possible places to live, and tomorrow number four. I have a great feeling about it.

A not so great feeling is that I don't eat correctly right now. I have no reason not to. But I guess I want to have a job and my own room to feel normal in every way possible.


blah blah blah...

restless

First week in school was so much fun! I feel that I learned a lot only in three days. Imagine after eight weeks and after one year?!

So today I'm having the day off. I still don't have a job, since the phone call never came to me this week. So my plan for today is to re-write my CV, make myself irresistable and go out looking for job.

My second mum's brother, that lives here in London, is going to help me, so I have to get my CV ready until about one o'clock. It's not the easiest thing in the world, and my experiences in the restaurant buisness are perhaps not the best. But I am a charmer, and I guess that's what it's a lot about, so I'm not really worried. I just need a job, because I don't know what to do on my free time.

I love Rock and Roll

Today I started school. MAN IT WAS FUN! But I got some seriour head ache when it was time to go home six hour later.

What made me super fun and excited was how many who complimented me for my voice. Today we were singing some Walking the dog blues song. It was pretty good, but after hearing what material we're going to use during this nine weeks, I have to say I am kind of disappointed. I thought this was a comtemporary school. But I'm sure things will turn out great anyways!

So after, I went home after passing my upcoming work. I haven't really moved my ass because I've been exhausted. I'm about to sleep as soon as the boys are done drunk eating.

I can't wait until tomorrow!

inside

So it's almost 3 pm and I haven't left the apartment yet. But I wouldn't say I've been that lazy. I have talked to a man I might rent a room from in Hammersmith whom I'm gong to meet up with tonight, and I've been sending e-mails to other interesting places to live in.

I sent messages to people that have been disapointing me just to let them know that I am disapointed.

I re-packed my bag because the trip here fucked it up.

I've been singing.

And now I did some yoga. It is time for a shower and maybe go out for a bit?

HEY°

London London

My current city is London. Yep. I don't know what to say about that right now.. I'm only vacation for a few days it seems. But no, I live here. But I am broke and homeless right now. It all is going to be just fine when school starts and I'll start working.

Today I went out shopping. A few things I really need and a few things I don't really need. But after the amount of clothes and stuff I had to take out from my over-weighted bag, I guess I needed all of the things I bought.

This is my new number
+44 (0) 7957647183

Tonight I am going to watch the final with my current room mates and a couple guys more. My forst game I'm watching this World Cup. It's going to be sick ! The best part is... I don't even know what teams are playing... Woo woo!

gym or not...

Last whole day huh...

I was suppose to go to the gym, but I don't know. I still need to wash my training shoes and a few other things.... my shoes really stink.

I am a bit tired and I had stomache ache when I woke up. Not the nervous kind of ache. Just need to fart or something.

Actually, I'm gonna go to the gym anyways. I don't know how much gym there will be for me in London, and yeah... I need excercise to have a healthy mind.

memories .

I'm ready

Today has been such a great day.

I went to the park to meet up with a very good friend of mine. Then we went to another park for a couple of more hours before we headed back into town to eat salad. I got to see his new apartment and he followed me to the Metro station.

Then I met up with another friend. The one I've known the longest. We walked around for a bit over two hours and I told her all about my trip and she told me about her life. I haven't seen her in about seven months, but it could have been just last week.


And, the best of all. I am ready to move. How much I love it here.. But I am ready. I also got the news that might have me staying in London for a bit over a year. But I'll take that when it's time to decide.

Tomorrow is a big day with a lot of people coming to say hi and good bye to me. It's going to be emotonal, but most of all fun. So for now I'm going to sleep, I figure I'll need that rest!

Love

The day before the day before THE day!

I never finished packing my bag. Well, I almost did. But the time just ran away and when I looked at the watch it was 2.30 am. So I decided to sleep. Good thing since I woke up at 8 am.

Today I've been to the store buying beer with my brother. I want to go to the gym, but today is the day I am going to finish this. I will have nothing to think of tomorrow when my good bye party is. To wich by the way qiute a few people are going to show up to. That makes me happy.

So now, I am going to finish this packing shit once and for all. I want to get out in the sun as soon as possible.

CHEERS!

slowly but steady

Sloooowly I'm getting there. I am going to finish my packing tonight and add what needs to be washed later. Period.

I'm almost done with the clothes-part.
Now the shoe-part, the bag-part and the rest-part are left to figure out before I can go to bed. I'm such a girl, but this is actually fun and it makes me even more excited about moving!

time to start packing?

Since my last post here, two days ago, I still haven't touched anything in my room. The thought of moving is settling in my head, slowly. The thing is, it's only three more days until that happens. I am constantly postponing this.

Like today.. I went to the gym after drivng my second mum and her friend to the emergency center, and then I went home. Then I felt restless because of the nice wether, so I called my friend and went to a park to do nothing.

I just got home and I still haven't started yet. I have been productive though, getting myself a Banc-ID and sending an e-mail to my school that starts on Tuesday.

So I could start packing now, right?
Well, I might go out tonight. My friend's birthday is today and yeah... just another reason to delay my packing I guess.

Go tidy up

Well, I didn't go up earlier for nothing. I'm going out for a run. Then my dad is going to pic me up and I'll go to work with him today. But I'm gonna work as the cleaning lady.

Talking about cleaning...

I think it's about time for me to start to get set for the move. Five more days and I'm out of here. The thought of leaving is also starting to settle in my mind and yeah... I'm getting there.

geekin'

So I've been geeking too much by the computer now, but I have been inviting people to my final get together, and from what it seem right now, we're going to be a bunch of people. I have the greatest feeling about it!

But I have been productive too.

I, as you might saw on my last post, did cut my brothers hair.
This was after he and I went into town to buy sunglasses and a trimmer. And after I went to the gym too.
And I gave my mum a french manicure.
And I have been cooking. Mexican night!
I also invited a friend to join us.


So I am pretty content, dispite the geek fact.

The day I cut my brother's hair

Okay, this is before I actually cut it. My mum killed it and it looked like this, you can't see it but it looked like stairs on my brothers hed. Then I, the best, fixed it. Now he is handsome. And hey, can you tell he's my baby brother or what?

Final

I just worked my last fourteen hours at my work. I am so going to miss my oldies, at least the sweet ones. Today I sat and watched TV wih one of them. We laughed. "We shared a moment", as it would say in the book in Nicaragua.

So what's next?

I am petrified about leaving. Here I am comfortably fine, but only as far as you all can see. I am longing for something more. I can't be too careful to reach out for it, that's why I will leave.

But still, I love it here. I really do. A boy I was dating last week told me that he wanted to see the world with my eyes. I think the world is beautiful, I think home is beautiful, my friends, my family, my work.. beautiful. So yeah, it's bitter sweet. That's all I have to say about that.

La musica

After working fourteen hours yesterday, I walked to Slussen to see my friends play with their band. It was abut two hours delayed, but once it started, maaaan, they rocked hard and we, the crowd, rocked even harder. They are super good and fun to watch, so check them out on myspace. Hildas Gitarr.

spinning in circles

I fell asleep early yesterday. I can so do today. And tonight... I'm going to meet a lot of my friends on a gig with Hildas Gitarr, also my friends. I am stoked!

Such a nice day

I went to a park to work on my tan and just be with myself, my thoughts, my book and my iPod. It was so hot and nice. Now is the perfect time here in Stockholm i almost want to say it's too bad I'm leaving in a week.

And I went to the gym too. It always makes me feel good.

Today I also fell in love. Robyn's newest CD Body Talk pt. 1 is so damn good. Repeat is on for a while I think.

morning

And here I thought that I wasn't going to be disturbed while sleeping. My mum walked into my room a bit after 7 am. Fortunately I could fall back to sleep after she left.

Now I'm going to pack a back with my work out clothes and then go to a park with a book and just relax the whole day.

Good night y'all

We ended up never doing the rest of my hair, so I am what we could call undone. Instead I fell asleep to Spiderman 3 before I walked my friend a bit on the way home.

Now I'm going to sleep and I am so putting my phone and my home phone on silence. There will be no disturbance tomorrow morning.

Doing da hair

Today is the day when I upgrade my hair. It's been a while since the last time. As always it's my friend Emilie that act my hairdresser when my back-then-hairdresser didnt' have time for me.

And as always we're nervous about the result. She had to run down to the store to get some more color. She was cheap at the begining of this session, so my hair has blond spots. But now when she get back we can be more generous with the color.


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