in it for the kill

I spent two solid hours training at the gym. After a day without training, I almost feel out of shape when I go to the gym, but as soon as I start I am really giving it my all.

Now I'm knackered. Just gonna chill a little while before taking a shower and sorting out my hair. Then everyone in the house is away, so I can practice the new tunes for tomorrow's rehearsal with a peace of mind. And then I'm writing my essay.

GRATTIS BROR!

Old photo, probably like 15 years ago. Just wanted to say Happy Birthday to my baby brother today. Wish you could be here in London so we could celebrate big time, but hey... life puts on it different places at times. I'm thinking about you today though, have a great day. Speak to you real soon! 

Love

crazy hippie

I'll probably wait another day before I try to sort my hair out. It's just soo much of a hassle. Plus, I kind of like the hippe look on myself.

outerbodyexperience

Just dropped my mum and gran of at the station. One quick visit is better than no visit though. Just really nice to see them both. 

The acid jazz gig last night... don't know what to say about it. I just felt a little misplaced on stage. Never had that feeling before, but I did not feel in tune with myself. Such a weird feeling to have. So I can't really say if it went good or not too good. I just have to wait for the feedback session on Monday.

All I remember is that we started playing Smells Like Teen Spirit and I made up a melody as the song went on. I completely forgot what I tried to prepare and practiced all day. So I'm scared and excited to look back at the gig. 

Today it's all about cleaning, studying, training, and learning songs for the next gig. Three weeks until the next big thing. I'm excited like hell for this coming one.

Load up on guns

Woke up and had a little Skype session with my mum and gran who are coming to London today. Gonna be so nice to see them and spend a little time together. 

I figured out how to sing the tune I had to change. Pretty painless process actually. Now I just need to get comfortable singing it. But haha, again, I think it's gonna be good tomorrow. Just wanna go "In your face tutor. Now cut me some slack!"

Time for some hoovering and some vocal program. No one is at home and I love it!

Monday Club

I decided to skip two of my classes today and go to the gym instead. And as expected I got more out of my training session than from my classes. I wish it wasn't so, but you can't always get what you want. 

After being slightly roasted my the performance teacher and after rehearsing the set one more time, I went to the pub with the boys. Was only gonna stay half an hour and I ended up staying about 4 hours. Great. I have so much work to do before the gig, and tomorrow my mum and gran are arriving from Sweden. 

It was really nice to sit in the pub though. The performance teachers were there as well. And the crazy thing, and maybe a bit sad(?), is that I get more out of sitting in the pub with them, than going to some of the other teachers lectures...

Anyways. I'm freaking tired. 

I am tired of being cold

ignore everybody else

Good productive day. 

Smashed my training session at the gym. I almost killed my knee again, but today I was smart enough to stop at the smallest sign of pain. I wonder what's wrong though, I do wanna be able to go for a run if I feel like it. 

Went down to my friend Perea and wrote a new song. We are such a good team. I come with my ideas and he polish them up. This ballad is gonna be dark. That's all I can say right now. 

I'm so hungry today too. But I guess that's a good thing. 

And today's bad thought:

I hate when people contact you ONLY when they want or need something from you. I wanna say fuck you, but the nice person inside just says "if you can help and it doens't really matter to you why don't you just be the better person?". Fuck you good angel on my shoulder!

sexes

I ended up with the fellas in the pub last night. It's always good fun, though I sometimes have to answer some crazy questions about the female kind. 

Went home and talked with D about the male kind. Will anyone ever be wise enough about the other sex? I don't know. 

Good night's sleep. 

Time for the gym, and then I'm meeting us with Perea do get some freaking work done. Things has not been running as smoothly as I though. 

#SaturdayEve

Always good to do things with the flatmates, though signing the contract so that the rent goes up from next month kind of suck a little. 

Walked down to school and practiced for a good 2 hours before band rehearsal. By then I'd had so much chocolate that I had to run around and dance for the whole rehearsal, leaving me with a head ache but a great fucking mood.

Rehearsal was good and I'm again excited about the gig on Wednesday. 

Pizza for dinner and now it's time to clean the bathroom. Oh yes!

t i m e

The past two days I have not done much. I guess sometimes it's well needed, yet I feel that it's a waste of time too. So yes. I'm on my practicing right now, and guess what. I'm not going to the gym. Just practice, band rehearsal and studies for this lady.

crying

One of my favourite things to do it so cry to a good film. I just just finished watching Brave and yes, I cried. The thought of something that doesn't really concern you sometimes can make you feel more than things that actually do is pretty amazing. 

Good day ahead, that's for sure.

loooong

Yesterday was loooong but good. Well, mostly... the only thing that put me off a little was that my teacher told me to sing like Aretha Franklin, meaning belting on high notes. Since first term of first year I've had issues with her. Don't get me wrong, she's a brilliant singer... I just can't personate her very well, therefore I get put off when I'm told to imagine what she'd do. 

Anyways. Just a very very long day, got home after 11pm and went straight to bed. 

Today was pretty long too, and singing-wise wasn't great. 
Training was good, though I can def. feel that my body needs some rest. 

So I'm gonna say good night and go to bed. 

Sunny Monday

Walking with Marie to school today. Enjoying the sun to the fullest. This freaking cold I have is soo annoying, but maybe with a walk I get things running a little bit. 

Looong day ahead. I would be lucky if I'm home at 10 pm tonight. All good and hype though, so have a good day. 

Turbular Bells

I went to the pub last night, to meet a few guys from school. And one of the teachers was there. I not only did he drain the energy out of all of us with an endless talking about music. I found out that he used to play for Mike Oldfield. That is fucking awesome!

like a boss

I trained like a monster today. I did 8 set of squats, 4 sets of jumping lunges and 4 sets of single leg squats. Then I killed my shoulders. 

I had this dream last night that the gym instructor that is doing the core class on Sundays didn't show up. And don't you think that the class was cancelled? 

I had other dreams last night, but I hope those we're fortune telling as well. 

I love walking home from the gym on a Sunday, especially when it's a sunny day like today. Takes me about one hour since I stop at Brick Lane Market to buy some veggies and fruit as well. 

Now I can do some work and some practicing and feel good about the whole day. Oh, I'm gonna ask one of the girls if they can cut my hair too. It's just way too messy right now.

sat night

Today has been rather good. 
Began watching these interviews of Muhammed Ali, 2Pac and a film about the last month of Lisa Left Eye Lopes life. Got up, washed and cleaned my room. Small workout. Food shopping for the week, sent out CV's and checked out a couple of songs. I also made a huuuge amount of carrot soup. 

Tonight there's a party I'm suppose to go to. I might go there and say hi and go home again. Probably gonna have Steve coming over and maybe catch up on one of the Oscar nominated films. 

I can't wait to train tomorrow, haha!

popcorn babies

What a great Friday evening. Sitting just reading this fitness blog, chilling on my own. Then just a minute ago my flatmate Marie came a gave me a bowl of popcorn. Oooh yes!

get them off my back today

Finally weekend. The Steely Dan assignment is handed in and the band is starting to sounds pretty sweet for the Acid Jazz gig in 1,5 weeks. This has not really been a week of catching up on sleep, but really the opposite. So I'm giving myself this weekend off all work without feeling guilty. Though I might still do some if I feel like it. 

Always feels weird after handing in an assignment, but always such a sweet relief! 
It's friday and I have no clue what I'm gonna do tonight, though I'm staying away from parties for sure.

working smirking

Today was good. Four long hours of rehearsal, but the set is starting to sound nice and it's great to finally put in some backing vocals. 

I've been very proactive with my Steely Dan assignment and with a little help from a friend I'm now more or less done.. My only problem now is that I have two versions of the same song. And I have no idea of which one to choose. 

I went for a 5 km run tonight too. All fine until the last kilometer when me knee started hurting big time... and silly me pushed through until I harldy could walk. So now I will just see what it feels like tomorrow.

And now it's 1.30 am and I have my band rehearsal in 8.5 hours.. Grrreat. Shower and bed. Pronto.

hello

Okay... it took me the WHOLE weekend to recover from tht party on Friday. And I ended up with a cold. But I am not hanging any lips. 

Went to meet up with these guys last night to see if I might join them for their project, and I will probably do so if everything goes well next time we meet up and we'll record some things. 

I have my first band rehearsal today at 5 pm as well. I'm very excited about this, I can't even tell... though my keyboard player cannot make it in the end. Oh well.. 

I just got some feedback from my composition teacher... so I'm gonna do some Steely Dan before I shower off this mess.

broken soul

I'm am absolutely broken today. 

The party was good, and for some reason I found myself still pouring drinks at 8 am this morning. Good times indeed. Cleaning up wasn't that aweful but now I'm feeling so broken I can't even think. My body proper hates on me right now. Totally worth it though. 

Been doing not much and now I'm gonna move over to the bed and to even less than that. And that's all I have to say right now. Boom.

Mad Men

Party is on. Mood is on. Drinks are in the glasses. Lipstick on the lips. Good night about to go down.

train and drrrrink

Today I started my new training, German Body Composition. I love it. And hope that I can really feel it tomorrow. 

As for in a bit I'm going out for some drinks. Treating myself with a night off since I did pretty good with work my assignment, though I got stuck today. Ah I just want a glas of wine. Speaking with Emilie to get in the mood!

Steely poo

As soon as I tried to put my piano voicings into horn arrangement I started hated on Steely Dan again. Why doing this? Steely Dan didn't even really use horns that much! I like the piano version waaay better!

aaaaaaaaah.

It's almost 2.30 am and I'm on the study hype. 
I've been skyping with my friend from Sweden for probabaly 3 hours.
He's pretty talented and funny, which was a very good combination for tonights topic....

Steely freaking Dan is coming together, finally. And I'm pretty damn happy with what it sounds like. So if I don't get good grades for this I don't know what's gonna happen. I should go to bed, but I'm a little bit scared that this flow will go away when the sun comes up. Still a lot of work to do, but from what I have I am happy as a happy bird can be. But I'll that the risk.

Good night.

Proper Sunday

Raae did such a proper clean of the kitchen today, it looks amazing. I cleaned the hall way and stair way, and hoovered both or maries and my room. And in the meanwhile I cooked this amazing chilli con carne. Took about 3 hours and tasted might fine. Got into the whole Mad Men mood for our party on Friday.

I said to myself that I will start my Steely Dan before 7 pm, and I'm sticking to that plan. So now I have one hour to do some singing and whatever else I feel like.

Sunny Saturday

Hello people. 

Last night I sat in my room watching all these prison documentaries.. I don't know why I got into it, but I spent a good amount of time doing it. 

It's a sunny day here in London and Raae and I are gonna go for a run in a bit. First one this year for me, exciting stuff. Then of course, I will practice my acid jazz songs and work on my Steely Dan, and do a little work for the Music Business group I'm in.

Tonight I'm going over to Nancy's to chill and hopefully enjoy a glass of wine! But first thing first.