work or rest?

So I was working at my old job today. Felt soooo nice, even though 3 of 4 or my ladies didn't have all the cars on the parking lot. I wish I could do what I do in Sweden in London. When it comes to work.

And I am quite sick, still, being this hard working Scandinavian as I am, I couldn't say no to working tomorrow as well as on Saturday. I mean, it's money, but where's the time for resting?

Oh well, I only have to go up at 6 am tomorrow. Baby food!

the jigsaw of my heart.

I feel heart broken. You know, sometimes you don't realize you miss something so much until you have it infront of you again.

I went to my old dance school today and the thought of me not dancing for 2,5 years is, as my old master said, crazy.

I just really looked up to her so much that the thought of dancing for somebody else was really not in my head. But I also realize how stupid I've been throwing away a big part of my life. A talent and ambition I worked so hard for, to what? Never do again?

No, as soon I go back home to London I don't even have to tell you what I'm gonna do.

goder morgon

Good morning, and it's sunny.

I woke up at 7 am for some reason, I think it might have been the heat in my room or the phone getting 7 messages in a row. Only from the operator and not from my friends. Haha.

Now it's half 11 and I'm gonna go into town and chill out with Elin. Haha, like we haven't seen eachother since, ehm, like yesterday.

Well well, I know it's sunny but the chills are out.

dance on roses

I have started my essay and I have to say it feels soooo good. A bit every day and I'll be done in no time.

Now I'm going to wash of my make up and go bed to watch a film and have a good nights sleep.

I have no idea what to do tomorrow at day time. But later on I'm gonna visit my old dance school. I haven't been there since I left 2,5 years ago. I think about it a lot and I miss it so much, but sometimes you have to let go of the thing you love the most. But I sure do look forward to see the girls tomorrow!

arrival

Home sweet home.

My baby brother picked me up, but I even got to drive home from the airport. Sweet!
And because my big brother was drunk when we returned the car I got a hug, and that, my friends, doesn't come very often.

I have a new Swedish number for this time, since I forgot my simcard in London.


0700 72 60 87 is where you reach me.

And I think no one could guess when I am gonna do now, first thing when I got home. I am gonna try to study. Yes. I am planning on getting quite far on my essay for music history that, sure, we don't have to hand in until sometime in May or something, but I know there are gonna come up more things to do once school is back on, so why not get startet. Whoop whoop, I'm such a geek.

Småland = Small land

Yesterday my bf and I went to IKEA, we bought some new stuff for the room that will be called ours soon. I love IKEA, but after several hours even I got tired of it, and the worst part is that you have to go through it over again if you forgot something somewhere along the way, or change your mind on which storage item you want.

So speaking of Sweden yeah? I shall see you very soon, as in tomorrow. I'm stoked when I think about it. So please call me if you wanna hang out. Unfortunately I've forgotten my own mobile number.

Cheers

change gonna come

Nothing special happened tonight eighter. Started to watch Glee, it's shit but I like it.

Met up with my bf after he got off work and went home to his, soon to be our, place. He made me an omelette. I haven't had dinner since I can't remember.

I have been terrible at eating and what I eat has been shit. I feel bad and I think my body doesn't really like me. A change's gonna come as soon as I move in here. No more excuses. I'm gonna start cook.

holiday inn

Hey hey Hey.

I'm on holiday, and the last school week just went fantastic I think. I came home after school on Thursday night and welt some kind of emtiness / restlessness. I didn't have anything to study for. Really an awkward feeling.

Yesterday after work I was so tired. I had a plan to go out to Hyde Park for a run, but I came home and slept basically in an instant. Clothes on, without brushing my teeth. Nasty, but I think I needed it.

Now I'm off for work. So I catch you later!

It's a beautiful day

Such a great day!

Waking up next my bf was really nice today as well. Leaving the house after finding a love note made me smile too.

Had my theory exam and I have to say that I was the first to leave and felt that I must have missed anything, one word. Easy.

Had time to go to the bank to sort out my payment for the school. I suddendly realized I spent a grand today. Felt great that too.

Classes were good and I got some clearity into my life. Like litterally; if you get stuck, move forward. No more tries at I turn to you.

Sat in the sun with Elin for about 1,5 hours reading loud from The Secret. My cheeks blushed a bit from the sun. But I absolutely loved every single second in it.

And finally, I think the transcription of I can't stand the rain is finally done. Now I just need to rewrite it tomorrow and then hand it in to the teacher.

I've now done all the hard things I've had to do, so I just feel so relieved and happy. I'm gonna enjoy this break as much as I would love to stay and just make music.

ease feeling

Morning everyone.

Well first I woke up at 5.00, then at 5.40 and then 9.00. And because of waking up that early to say bye to my bf who headed to work, waking up at nine felt really late.

I'm not heading to school today since we don't have to practice, but I'm gonna stay in bed for a while and study for our theory exam tomorrow. It's basically just repeating everything over and over and get faster. I feel quite sure of what I'm doing tomorrow.

I can't wait to go home at meet my faily and friends in Sweden next week. It really is not happening as much as I thought it would when I moved here about nine months ago, but it is what it is.

Now, tritone substitution.

monday mars

The final week of term to is already here... Exams is coming up and I actually feel quite ready. And I feel happy.

Things are really going up and down here for me. But I have a feeling it might get a bit more setteled. I'm moving out from the fancy area and move in with the bf in the posh area once and for all. Not that it matters what area it is.

I was training in the park today too... Training outside is a strong sign of spring. But in this country is warm one day and freezing the next. I want some consistancy please.

And I got a really nice dinner cooked for me tonight. So I am pleased.
Gonna pay back with some ironing. Then, a film in the bed.

Good night!

oh yes

Hey Friends. My mum has returned to Sweden so now I go back to being normal nerd.

The gig we had last night was amazingly fun. In general I don't think we did as good as last time, but we had a freaking good time anyway.

So next term I'm gonna go back to busting peoples asses so that we can become better and stronger. I want that feeling of being best, plus I want a destinction.

I haven't been studying much now when my mum has been here.. Or I take it back, I haven't been studying at all since she came. So now is the time to step it up for the exam next term. I also have a lot of home work to do until next week, so I'm on it.

Mummy

Hey hey hey... my mum has arrived. So far so good. No fights.

struting

Walking to work is nice.

Later

a short one

Hello. I'm in school and am just about head up to Sightsinging class. I'm getting hungry though.

Today is exactly one week until the school gig at The Arches here in London Bridge. Come, come.

Kudos!

Done, and DONE. Almost. One bar left, but I need help with that. But at least I have quite a lot to show tomorrow. What a relief!

I'm gonna take a look at another Gossip Girl episode, after a well deserved bath. Mmmmhm!

hm.

Okay... after one episode of Gossip Girl.

here comes....

The band is really starting to get somewhere, and that somewhere is great. I'm so excited for next Thursday next week (officially the gig day, so be there).

Just had a session over Skype with my mum, so everything is normal and all. She'll be here in exact one week from now. Fun stuff, even though I won't be able to hang out everyday.

And I've been such a good student the past two weeks. I'm doing a lot of theory and I'm finding a way to practise more efficient when I practise. So that's great news. And guess what I'm gonna no once I'm over this post. Yes. Compleat the whole transcription. I've postponed the ending from last Thursday, but I want to hand it in and get feedback from my teacher tomorrow, and then give it to my drummer friend and get the rythm checked one more time. So... later.

please

My bf is snoring beside me. I'm gonna crawl near and steal some heat. I think it should get warm now. It's Mars, okay. Almost summer. Come on!

girls...

Sometime I just hate girls.

Went to a housewarming party today and I was invited by this Danish guy I know from school. So we we're standing there, having a great conversation about porridge, when his girlfriend's best friend came and forced him away from me and Elin. And, without finishing out conversation I left around three hours later, because this girl wouldn't let him go near me. And the same with his friend and then another friend.

What can I say... pathetic.

friday

Hey people. Today was another great day. Work offered nothing new, but since my spirit was joyful I think the customers liked me a bit more, aka more tips.

The only thing I didn't like was the extremely expensive tube pass I bought. It's almost twice the price comparing to the buss pass only. I'm so gonna go on the tube every day to make the most of it. And then back to normal, longer bus routes.

Oh and I just realized that I spend so much more money now when I cook every night. I don't know, maybe not in the long run, but I need to make up a budget.

So for tonight I ate the exciting mix of smoked salmon, baby potatoes, egg and toast.

Rock on!

So, school was great today as well. We have our setlist done for the gig that's in two weeks and I think my song has turned out to be the coolest of them all. You have to show up if you wanna hear the band rock the venue.

And since I came home about two hours ago I have spent at least 1,5 hour re-transcribing and writing out the song as tidy as I can manage. I'm about half way through but I'm enjoying every second of it since it's hitting me in the face how much better I've become at this. It's not an easy thing to do.

so happy i could die

Great day in school. Absolutely loved it. Even at the end when the voice was just too tired and I couldn't do anything right but sounding like a 13 year old boy first experience his voice breaking. But I wasn't alone feeling like that, so us singers had a laugh.

I've also managed to smash a whole chocolate bar BEFORE dinner. My soup became a joke though, so yeah... when can I say. That's what me bf gets when he gets here...

Gonna take a quick bath before he comes.

We'll get there

Sooo.. We have two more weeks until we have our assessment gig. I'm quite nervous since we have A LOT to practise. But we're sure getting there.

And that also means that my mum will be here in two weeks time. I am so looking forward to that.

Oh, and I cooked for the first time since I moved to the new place. Now I have luchboxes for two days, and if my bf want to eat when he gets home, I have some food for him as well....

All this positive thinking feels great. Now I'm gonna go and do some research for the essey we have to write for music history....

happy girl

And he bought me a fucking keyboard as well. I think I might be the luckiest girl in the world. I don't think he realise how much I needed one for my studies. I'm so gonna get in on the second year now, there are no excuses any more.