my me day

Oh, and it's officially wintertime.

Today I stayed in bed, on off sleeping until 1 pm, that mean that yesterday it would have been 2 pm. I guess I needed some recap on the resting part. And since then I have been cleaning a bit here in my bfs and his flatmates flat.

My Sundays really aren't filled with much. But I like it a bit, since I need my day a week where I can just be. But then I feel kind of inspired to write some music, so I'm soon gonna go to my place and see what's gonna happen.

There's fireworks going on too. :)

Halloween

Halloween is a funny thing. People here just love to have an exuse to dress up and become someone else. In Sweden Halloween is not the biggest thing, and I think people in general don't get a costume.

This past two days I've been everything from Alice in wonderland, the Hunchback, Teenage Mutant ninja Turtles, Pumkin dresses made out of orange recykling bags, Zombies, Clowns and people that just put on something ugly they found in their closet and would never (hopefully) wear otherwise.

I was working and went straight to Brick Lane, so no costume for me, which is ashame, but frankly I would thorow away money on a one time wear costume when I don't really have any money. But I really like the whole imaginary dress up to whatever you want to be. And this weekend is the only weekend you wouldn't be judged for it.

prejudice

There's a few things that really amazes me.

One of those things occured to me yesterday when I was on the bus on my way to Brick Lane to meet up with some friends.

The bus was crowded and I sat in the back. Then I notised this man, a muslim man with the beard and all that you would imagine he would have. I see muslims every day, and I have friends with that religion. But when I saw something strange under his shirt I kind of got scared and actually considered going of the bus and wait for the next one.

I would say that I don't have prejudices and that I don't easily judge people. So afterwards, when he stepped of the bus before I got the chance to, I got kind of angry with myself for the way I had been thinking.

So as the matter of fact, even I do judge people. I'm not happy about it, but I guess that's the way we work.

just a quick one

Tonight I'm going back to my place. Elin is moving into her own place in Notting Hill today, so yeah.

School is fine and I am staring to manage the piano somewhat actually.

Oh, I also got an answer from the band I applied to yesterday. I think I'm gonna have an audition this weekend. So fingers crossed peeps!

Time for sightsinging.

hey friend

So we had a teem meeting at work today. Interesting. Very interesting. Not much to say but I did open my mouth first. But I actually think that from here we might end up in peace at some point.

Now I'm in school, and I'm just about to go and practice some before going to the singers workshop that broke my self confidence last week. But as they say. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger" and I'm definitely back on track. So no more bloging, more singing.

Ciao.

If it's not real you can't see it with your eyes, you can't feel it in your heart. And I won't believe it.

Something else I haven't told you guys is that my boyfriend is taking me to see my favourite band in about two weeks. Paramore, HEEYAAA! I'm so excited, and even more excited to see how he'll cope for about two hours. He's kind of trying to start liking them just to go with me. If that's not love I don't know what it is.

miles de perlas al cerdo

My boyfriend just mocked me and said "Are you gonna write in your blog, I can't wait to read it!" And then he said, "it used to be juicier". It's true, my blog is really going up and down in the scale of C Major. And now it's around Happy Birthday.

You wouldn't understand that shit, but it means a 2 of 8 on a scale.

I got sent home from work today. Obvioulsy the staff responsible bitch didn't like my attitude and yeah, one hour less work for me. But then again I came in two hours early today.
It's gonna be fun to see what's gonna happen on our "team-meeting" tomorrow morning. It's better be juicy, because I'll miss my Piano lesson for that.

bläh

Dear Sunday again.

Yesterday was so busy at work, non-stop til close hour. It was fun though. But I didn't have time to eat much. So when I met up with the bf and his flatmate I was hungry but didn't eat, until we passed Subway.

My dad and his wife and some other went to Australia a couple of days ago, so I'm not jealous. Not at all.

And I might have some kind of blatter infection. Just saying, I like to give away a bit too much information. My bf thinks I should go to the doctors, but I don't really have time. So what do I do? I won't take any time off school and I can't really afford not working. And to wait until next Sunday is probably not an opption. Hmm.....

Well, I am starving and it's about 11 am. I'm gonna walk over to my place and practise in a while and then there's some go away drinks for some friends of my bf. I'll probably attend to that.

Oh and I feel like I want to go back to writing more, so keep checking my blog!

Laters.

Help I'm cold and it's only October.

There's not many things I miss about Sweden.

Just some food, salt liqorice and some nature.

Well, that's in summertime.

Now when the winter hours are about to arrive I have to say I miss the warm houses we all live in. I'm in bed, under a blanket, under a duvet cover, in socks, legwarmers, and a fully dresses body minus the pants. Fully dressed means a leather jacket and a furr. Yeah, no shit. And on top on that I haven't showered in about 3 days now since there's no hot water.

My bf "had" to take a shower, and I could hear him hutter. And guess who has to warm up that frozen body now.... I do. The one who's cold all day, every day.

So yes, I miss the safe warm home with double, fully closable windows and endless of hot water and electric heat.

Now I'm gonna try to take off my jacket and lay down in a baby's pose.
Good night.

Choking of saltwater, but I swim.

I lack in confidence now. I had a teacher giving me critic and then when I had my rehearsal yesterday I did shit on Think. So right now it's quite tough singing. Even some people in my P&I group said another girl is better suited. And I think then might be right. I can't wail and I don't have a bluesy and a gospel-ish sound in my voice, so singing Aretha Franklin is not a simple thing to do.

So yeah, I feel quite low.

And in this school you don't really get encourage to sing "your" style. So those who have the blues, motown and soul and all that in them are great, and the rest of us is not quite as good. Other then that it's a great school. Really.

I just need to figure out how to get my confidence up again, otherwise I will drown in this pond of musicians.

list

This is the list for today to. Hello readers. Well, it's in Swedish, but you know... I'm too lazy translating today.

Sydkorea 24

Sydafrika 15

Sverige 11

Förenade Arabemiraten 10

Storbritannien 8

Iran 6

Filippinerna 6

Malta 4

Nederländerna 4

Ryssland 3

sunday 9.52.

I got to sleep in today so I feel better, and now I'm in bed again and it's not even 10 pm yet. What about that?

I had a good day and I also got some studies done. Tomorrow will the next, as hectic, week start so yeah... catch you soon.

Totally Swedish.

I feel for something swedish tomorrow. You know... there's a Totally Swedish store here in London where you can buy all kinds of swedish food and stuff. That would be an amazing Sunday for me.

the day before the the day off

I need a massage so bad. I feel sorry for my body for having to cope with my lifestyle. And yesterday we went out. Two girls from school, my bf, his friend and I. I had really fun and us girls were dancing our asses of. We were suppose to go out tonight again, but after 9,5 hours at work my legs just said no. And my body shut down on the bus home.

I'm so stiff that even sitting down hurts. Good thing I have tomorrow off! But then I have to move some stuff over to my place, find a way to scan some papers for CSN and send them away as fast as I can. I need to study and my bf wants me to come with him to Clapham to meet up with his mates.

I'm just saying, if school wouldn't be so good I couldn't do it. But I still need a massage, and I bet my bf wont be the first one saying yes.

hay you

Sorry for not giving you any news. I do have good reasons though.

1. I litterally don't have that much time to sit around and blog,
2. I don't have any internet where I live, so whenever I'm staying with the bf I can give you the latest.


Not much is going on more then school and work.

Yesterday though, after school, we went to a gig and one of my teachers band were playing. SO FUCKING AWESOME. I danced my ass of and they were such entertainers. If you want to, look up 24 pesos, the name of the band.

I am a bit sick and really exhausted too. But still very happy. I love school so much so that the rest doesn't really exist, exept from my bf of course. I just mean, I'm really living a tough life and I could walk around and feel sorry for myself. But I don't. I mean, sure, sometimes it would be nice to be able to treat yourself without having to think about tomorrow.

Thing will get better, and I will sure be a better person when things are going fine again.

10 10 10

It is such a nice day today, but I have no energy to walk around. I did sit in the park for about 1,5 hours earlier today.

We're going to the movies and that's it for today.

Then we might sleep at my place tonight. Or my shit whole maybe I should say. But it's closer to work for both of us. And that's good.


And it would be cool to be born on this very special day, October 10, 2010.

not complaining, but....

I'm sick. Just having a cold or something, but that's like the worst thing for a singer. I hope to get better until Tuesday, and I'm sure this is just a temporary "fuck up my only day off of the week"-cold.

An today didn't really start as I wanted to and since I am a sick woman waiting for the period to strike, I'm not to play with!

And I don't think we'll go to IKEA. I love the thought of it, but it will only remind me of the misery I'm living in. IKEA is above my economy.

Speaking of economy... I have enough money to pay my rent and enough money to top up my Oyster card every week, but not much more then that. So I don't think I should think about start dancing again until I can afford 3 meals a day.

It really suck being a poor student, but only the part of being poor. It's really tiring and I know my bf have to put up with a lot of shit. ButI love being a student again and I am so happy when I am at school and I really feel that it is in this business I belong. I just need to keep being strong.

work smurk

It's time for work. I don't feel like working since the bed is warm and my bf is sleeping holding ankle. Oh well, I got a shit payment this month so I have to do something about it until next month.

Need to run into Primark as well and buy new shoes. I threw my other ones away since I had spilled milk all over them.

blh

Ended up going out anyway,and the chick was nice too...

me, myself and I

So my bf came home and asked me if I want to go to the pub with him, his flatmate and some other chick.

I couldn't be bothered, since I'm in my Pj's and brushed teeth already.

Some people would call that being selfish, I'd like to say strong minded.

Let your mind go, let yourself be free

It was a really chilled out day today.

I stayed at my bf's place til around 10 am, doing some laundry and eating porridge and all that good stuff. Then I took some of my shit with me and went to visit myself in Earls Court. I have to say I really like that place, but it has even more potential to become cozy and nice. That's why I'm planning on going to IKEA on Sunday.

After that I went to school. Some girl that can't really sing, but knows music theory like a master (but in russian) helped me out with some things I didn't really understand during the lesson we had on Wednesday. Now I do know it. But she doesn't know she can't sing.

Then I did my vocal exercises and practised a bit on the song I've already choosen for my final P&I in about 8 weeks. Think by Aretha Franklin. Good shit and a challenge for sure! But I don't like safe cards.

Other than that I was just hanging around with the guitarr lads from summer course. And after picking up the keys from my bf, I walked to Fulham from Sloan Square. Now I'm gonna take a shower and I'm considering to shave my legs, but we'll see about that.

answer

--------> Bunduri

business going

But business is going better then ever I have to say. Maybe I should stop writing compleatly and I'll have the crown prince Daniel of Sweden reading my blog.


This is todays list of readers.

Sweden 15
USA 15
Irak 10
Philippines 9
Burundi 5
England 5
South Africa 2


Now I have two questions.

1. Who are you people?
2. Where lies Burundi?

I'm not dead.

Long time no see.

Things has been up and frankly speaking I haven't been bothered to write. But here I am and a lot of things are new.

1. School has started, or all the classes are staring tomorrow, but I've been to introductions and met my classmates and had tests and been slit into groups. Of course I ended up in group 1, the best group I presume.

2. I spent time with one of the girls in my class. Elin from Sweden. She's a really nice girl and I have a lot to learn from her. She used to be in the pop group called EMMA. I peed my pant a bit when she told me that. I truly hated that band in the 90's.

3. My last post told you I was home hunting. And today I payed the deposit and the rent for my new bedsit in Earls court. It's a cheap place very local. And even though I may not spend a lot of time there, it's really nice to have your own space and somewhere to just dump your shit. I'm tired of staring at my suitecase. I think my boyfriend is relieved, and not to mention his flatmate.


So yeah, to sum up this 5 days of no news from my side I can tell you that I now am an owner of about 40 pounds, but a happy and excited poor person.

Oh and my friends is in London so I guess after my 11 hours of classes tomorrow, I'll try to meet up with him.