Viva Roma

Hellooo,

I am great, just thought I'd put it out there. 

Tomorrow I'm going to Rome, a place I've wanted to go to for many many years. Now it's finally happening. And I'm meeting my dad and stepmum and I think we're gonna have a fabulous time together. Can't wait.

I'm dieting again, which will make it a little bit difficult, but my head is strong and I've prepared this week for a little bit of trating myself "when in Rome". I'm feeling happy and confident at the moment so I can't really complain. 

It's been a week since I came back from Sweden. I've kept myself kinda busy. 
Work is still fairly slow with client hours, but as now I'm training twice a day 3 days a week it takes up a little time. 

I've completely stopped caring about "being fatter" and food doesn't freak me out at all anymore. I'm enjoying good food and some bad food and wine as well. 

With some help from my mentor I'm training really hard and I'm trying to grow, and next year hopefully I can diet again and go on stage to compete. 

Today I spent in bed almost the entire day. Then I found a link saying that today they had a memorial for the great fire of London that happened 350 years ago. So I decided to walk all the way down to South Bank to watch the fire for about 20 min, and then walk back home again. 

I'm feeling very grateful at the moment. And now it's time to sleep.

Holiday part 2

I'm just at the airport back from Sweden for the second time this summer. 
I've had an amsolutely amazing 9 days and of course, as always I wasn't quite ready to go back to London reality just yet. But I am excited to get back into a routine and some healthy eating. 

My diet has litterally been "low protein, high bread, dairy product and sugar". Jumping on the scale will be a bit of a scare tomorrow morning, but I am happy to say that this time around I don't really care. I am back to full soft self and I am ready to start working super hard on building muscle and getting leaner without dieting.

Until next time...

date(s)

I am having a great time in Sweden, and the weather is just perfect. 

I must say that I am keeping very busy though, running around between friends, training, family and dates. Yes, I am making the effort to actually go on dates. This is in plural, I just think why not. I'm on holiday and I haven't met up with new people for so long that I kinda just want to go overboard on this... Never the less, it's been interesting so far. TBC!

Hello, it's me

Now Midsummer weekend is out of the way. 
I ate so much I felt sick, no need for alcohol to get me to that state. 
Had a really nice time with my family and yesterday (Saturday) the weather was great, today I was paying the price of not putting sun screen on my shoulders... But now it seems like there might just be shit weather all week. At least it's hot as fuck. Love it. 

Midsummer

It's Midsummer and I just got back to Sweden.

My flight was almost 3 hours delayed. 
That meant I went eating bad stuff out of boredom. I also bought myself a new handbag. 
There was a crying baby behind me on the flight. 
I had to take the shutterbus into town because my "driver" overslept. He picked me up from the central anyway. Then he locked the house keys in the garage and we had to call my mum to come from work and open the door for us. Now it's 5.45am and I should really be going to sleep if we are going to party all day today. 

But I am happy. I have 10 days off. I had a mega awesome leg session today before heading to the airlort. I am no longer dieting. I am slightly at peace that I will get fatter this week. I just want to enjoy myself. I might just have to diet a little bit when I'm back in London, but right now I want to just chill and enjoy myself. 

getting older, getting smaller

Today is my last day as a 26 year old. That's all I have to say about that really. 
I'm still enjoying life and I'm trying not to stress about the fact that my eggs are getting old haha. 

Jumped back on the high horse with my diet after Saturday's slip, and tomorrow we are taking new measurements and progress photos. I weigh less than I have in many many years and lower it will go, but I don't really care. Honestly, the only thing that really annoys me is that I'm not allowed to donate blood until I gain my weight back up again. I just have to find another way to be a hero for a little while. 

YMBBT

So today I went volunteering at You Me Bum Bum Train again, the things I did last year. It was nice, but if I go back next weekend I will chose another scene. 

My dieting has been going so well, until today. I fucking went to town with my refeed and this means that tomorrow I will double my cardio to 1hr to at least make up for some of the shit I put into my body today. Damnit. I did so well, really! I feel veru guilty, but there is nothing to do about it now than to be even more on point from tomorrow. 

Easter

Hi,

This weekend is Easter weekend.
I'm working of course. But it's okay. 

I have really enjoyed working lately. It is still hard core, but my state of mind is different and it just makes things so much easier. 

I am genuinely tired though, but when it comes to night time I am wired.
I should really just try cut out the coffee for a while, but I don't feel that I drink it because I need to wake up. It's just so tasty and comforting. 

Anyway, Easter weekend. I would've loved to go back home and see my family, but life is what it is and I'm okay with that at the moment. My flatmates are both in Denmark as well, so I have the house to my self. I have a case study to complete in a week's time so I need to spend some serious time on it this weekend and I won't be disturbed, unless I want to be! 

Happy Easter everyone. 

(I won't be having any easter eggs, because I'm still on a diet haha!)

Sunday Funday

It is 8.30pm and I am just about to take off my PJ's for the first time today, only to take a bath and then jump back into them again and go to bed. 

I have spent most of the day doing my online exam for Body Type Nutrition. I didn't finish, but I only need to spend another couple of hours on it before Friday night. So I should be fine. 

Spent some time with Raae in the kitchen listening to music and remenising about the early 2000. What good times it was... 15 years ago. My God. Oh Well. Move on. Don't forget. 

I'm actually quite excited to work. 
I'm excited to learn.
I'm excited to be a part of it all.

I'm also excited to fly back to Sweden next week.
I'm probably going to appreciate it more than ever, all the time for myself and my family and for anything that I want to do. It's going to be great. Just like the bath I'm about to take.